♥Monday, September 20, 2004
I have finally did it!
I managed to put pics and even music!! Hmm.... this one of my fav song! hehe...
Nvm, i try to find umm...less noisy song.
♥Saturday, September 18, 2004
Bloggy,
I seriously do have a huge problem.
What kind of problem? Not BGR! Hehe....
I can't seem to eat. Why? My appetite just diminished as the day goes by. When did this comes about? I DUNNOE!!!!
In fact, everytime i see food, i feel like vomitting. Even the smell makes me sick. Why? I think i am going crazy!! And Xinyi even DARE to suggest that I am PREGNANT!! Arghhh!!!!
I think i am going to buy some vitamin pills or something. But i know they will NEVER work on me. How to gain weight?
My mom nagged at me for not eating well especially now that exam is getting nearer. She says that i should eat more food so that i will be able to think better... I know what she says are all true. But i just can't eat! Even today, i FORCED myself to eat the damn burger and cheese fries... This is really getting bad...
♥Thursday, September 16, 2004
Bloggy,
Somehow today i began to think a lot. Dun know why.
In the morning, i ask my mom whether i am having a fever or not. But she snapped at me telling me to go and play the computer and my fever would be gone. i felt kind of hurt but being me, i just kept quiet and go off to study.
Then, my bro wanted to go to school. It was raining. About to rain i think. I refused to sent him to school. I dun know why. I think i juz want to feel rebellious.. She scolded me from Ato Z..
Calling me heartless, cold person, self-centered and stuff.
I juz kept quiet, keeping everything inside of me. wantd to cry but i cant seem to do it.. Maybe i am heartless. My heart juz go numb.
Then, during tuition. The monkey is ok. But the brat. The girl told me to correct her compo. So i did. I pointed out all her mistakes but she was not happy with it. She said i am too noisy and stuff. I am already being irritated. Then, my hp rang. My cousin msged me. That brat wanted to see it but i refused. Anyway, it was written in Malay. I told her that she wun understand. She told me that i was being rude. i rolled my eyes and let her say whatever she wans. Then, she told me that her grandmother thought that i am ugly. SO WHAT???
Then, juz now. I juz switched on the computer and started to chat. Then my bro came home from work. He demamded the use the computer and make a big fuss out of it. I am so irritated. I am older than him but he has absolutely no respect for me. Same goes to everyone i met. My students or what. They absolutely have no respect for me. They only treat me as a thing which they can order around or play with. Juz because i never complain.
Bloggy, i really think i am heartless. Whatever my mom say is true. I am self-centered, heart made of ice and heartless. whatever ppl do to me, i absolutely feel nothing. i may feel sumthing but then, i will forget abt it. Just like ice...
♥Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Bloggy,
Yesterday, i have a very weird dream...
U want to know what?
Let me tell...
I was in Orchard road, i think.. Coz there are bright lights... But then there are sand. I wonder where could we be.
Anyway, i was not alone.. I was with this friend of mine, Fristin..
We sat down. Then she started to asked me questions...
She asked, "Hey Linda, how do we draw family tree?"
I was surprised, "Family tree? Like that lah."
She too a deep breath. she aske dme again, "How do you draw a family tree if i marry Shuwei?"
I was stunned when i heard that. "Huh? What? What tree? What marry Shuwei?"
She looked irritated and smacked my thigh. "Be serious lah. you already done the family tree."
I looked confused and asked her, "I did? What kind?"
She answered, "You are married to Kunda, remember? You already drew it!"
I looked at her in surprised. "WHAT?? Since when?" i asked.
She gave up asking me. "Linda, i ask you. What will you do to the family tree if you and Kunda are having problems?"
I looked at her funnily and answered, "I will cut the tree."
After that, my handphone rang and woke up. Funny dream rite?
Hey!
Before i start, i would like to name my blogspot, Bloggy! So, from now onwards, i will address it as Bloggy!
Bloggy,
U want to know wat happen today?
Nothing much. I am down wif flu and fever and i hope not a sore throat.
Then in school today, i thought i would be having a nice day, teaching them. Today is the last day i am teaching them. haizz... Seriously, i hate to scold. i never scold my classes before but they really ask for it.
I hate it. I am the type who prefer to play around, breaking rules. even though i am like that, I am serious when it comes to teaching or studying. There are times where we can play. There are also times which we have to be serious.
These past 6 days of me teaching them, i have put on a blind eye on what they are doing. They exchange places, play and talk when i gave them work. I did not mind at all. But today is the last straw. I think they thought that i am not strict. Yeah, i am not but they could not play around with me.
I scolded them, shouted at them. haizz... My throat more sore... summore my back hurts due to the rain and cold in the staff room.
Oklah, enough of that.
i have a bear. i named him Kunda...
hmm... Kunda is quite big and cuddly. He gave me warmth especially nowadays where it is always raining. I have grown attached to Kunda. Even my brother. Unfortunately, i cannot keep him. How? I have to give Kunda away. Who can take care of my Kunda well? If you can, pls tell me! Hehe....
♥Sunday, September 12, 2004
Ok, what happened today?
Today, i really got nagged and scolded by my parents. Can't do his, can't do that. Wear this wrong, wear that is wrong. The shirt to short, too tight, etc, etc.
Seriously, i really feel as i am 9 yrs old!
Avtually there is more to it. The way they scold me can really pierce your heart. I always cannot do everything.
I love to joke. maybe my jokes aren't funny or sensible or logical at all. But i know what is wrong and what is right. i know my limits. No matter how much i like Kunda, i know that he will never be mine or whatsoever. All this talk about he being my bf are juz plain crap. But they nv know it. They thought i am so into him.
Today, i was forced to go Escape theme park. Oklah, it was fun. but i do not have the mood so i only enjoyed it half-heartedly. I did not brg a extra set of clothes. I took the wet and wild ride and i was wet from head to toe! i went home dripping wet. Serious!!!
My dad won a big teddy bear. I named him Kunda. You want to know why? Because, i can beat him up for all i care! a bit ironic don't you think? I like Kunda a lot but still have the heart to beat him up. i guess there is a wire or screw loose up there. Hehe...
♥Saturday, September 11, 2004
Hey,
i hope no one is reading this.. Dun noe why.. Muz be crazy.
Wad happen that makes me disappointed?
well, it may sound childish but i have to let it out.
Today is Energy's auto session. I ask my cousin along. She wore the tudung. hehe... I very bad. Never wear..
Anyway, i let her and 2 of my friends go first. they managed to get a handshake from the 3 of them but i only get to shake niu nai's hand. I am kind of disappointed coz i wan to shake kunda's hand. Haizz... i still rmember it.. I wanted to shake hands wif them but they pull back their hand. I dun wan to be extra so i pull back my hand, dismissing the thought of shaking hand with them.
But u know wad, niu nai's hand very warm! i still can feel his warm hand on mine... hehe..
You want to know why i let them go first? i don't know why but i just have this sense of responsiblity towards them. I am the oldest one even though i do not act like one. i feel more at ease to see them happy rather than me. I will feel much better if i see them go on and off the stage safely. You may think it is a bit crazy or a bit too much. I can't do much about it.
i luv the pics that i take. Especially one where Shuwei was drinking! Hehe...
♥Friday, September 10, 2004
Words-Linda
It's only words
Yet it makes a difference
Unable to speak out
One turn to words
When life gets tough
It's only words
Only a few scribbles
An there it is
One's deepest secret
It's only words
So few
Yet so meaningful
One seek solace
in these mere words
Drawing Faces - Linda
Drawing faces
On pieces of blank papers
What is the purpose
One may ask
Drawing faces
Juzt to pass the time
Time slowly faded by
Accompanying the lonely heart
Drawing faces
Hoping to wait for the face
Which will be imprinted forver
Forever in my heart
I am back again!
Hahaha.... I wonder who is reading this.
What is my purpose in wrting this now? I also don't know. Juz to pass time i guess.
Ok, Ok....
Maybe i write some poems? hehe...
HIM
Waiting for time
waiting for him
waiting for the one
The one bringing me out of time
When will he appear
when will he arrive
No one knows
Only time will tell
Patiently I sit
Patiently I wait
Patiently waiting
For him to come
Done by: Linda
Guess wad?
today, i thought i wan to be a good samaritan but too bad. I want to donate blood but cannot. WHY? because i am too thin! Can you imagine? I am only 42 kg! I lost 4kg in such a short time. Why? Arghh!!!
Tell me how to gain weight?
♥Thursday, September 09, 2004
hmmm...
How to start?
i have a lot of things to write about.
Ok, let me write about what is on my mind first.
I was happily studying for my maths when i went up and take a look at mt entry proof. I was so shocked beyond words that my malay exam was over! I did not even know about it. I could had scored distinction but i missed it.
I feel terrible. Very terrible. My mom chided me for being able to remember Energy dates but unable to remember such imp dates. haizz... I admit it, it is all my fault.
I was feeling so miserable that I thought of going to Kbox to see Energy but gave it up. Why see them if i feel so depressed. Even seeing Kunda doesn't help.
Next, what happen?
A small kid kept bothering me about silly questions. I do not mind at all. i find it rather amusing. But somehow, she kept protruding into my personal space, That is one thing i can't accept.
She ask me this particular question which i am very sore about. She asked me why i do not have a best friend.
I hate that word. i do not like it at all. Best friends are nothing but only there to take advantage of you. I do not like it when it comes to the word, 'friend'.
i do not know why but i feel very upset and angry when someone ask me about friends.
