Bloggy,
Somehow today i began to think a lot. Dun know why.
In the morning, i ask my mom whether i am having a fever or not. But she snapped at me telling me to go and play the computer and my fever would be gone. i felt kind of hurt but being me, i just kept quiet and go off to study.
Then, my bro wanted to go to school. It was raining. About to rain i think. I refused to sent him to school. I dun know why. I think i juz want to feel rebellious.. She scolded me from Ato Z..
Calling me heartless, cold person, self-centered and stuff.
I juz kept quiet, keeping everything inside of me. wantd to cry but i cant seem to do it.. Maybe i am heartless. My heart juz go numb.
Then, during tuition. The monkey is ok. But the brat. The girl told me to correct her compo. So i did. I pointed out all her mistakes but she was not happy with it. She said i am too noisy and stuff. I am already being irritated. Then, my hp rang. My cousin msged me. That brat wanted to see it but i refused. Anyway, it was written in Malay. I told her that she wun understand. She told me that i was being rude. i rolled my eyes and let her say whatever she wans. Then, she told me that her grandmother thought that i am ugly. SO WHAT???
Then, juz now. I juz switched on the computer and started to chat. Then my bro came home from work. He demamded the use the computer and make a big fuss out of it. I am so irritated. I am older than him but he has absolutely no respect for me. Same goes to everyone i met. My students or what. They absolutely have no respect for me. They only treat me as a thing which they can order around or play with. Juz because i never complain.
Bloggy, i really think i am heartless. Whatever my mom say is true. I am self-centered, heart made of ice and heartless. whatever ppl do to me, i absolutely feel nothing. i may feel sumthing but then, i will forget abt it. Just like ice...
