Hari Raya is coming soon...
And i do not even feel the least bit excited..
Why?
Instead of feeling happy, i feel upset and nervous.
Haizz.....
When i think of meeting all my relatives, i cringed at the thought of that.
Not that i dislike them. I just do not like answering questions.
They will ask me all sorts of questions. Then after i answered them, they will give me useless advice and kind of trying put me down.
I will feel irritated and bored. Maybe because my way of thinking is utterly different form anyone else. Those who know me should know my way of thinking. Well at least a bit.
Anyway, my cousins have either married with kids or young kids.
How am i suppose to click with them?
Even if there are some teenagers like me, their mind is not like mine.
I am much more open-minded. They are kind of narrow-minded in my opinion.
I dread it. I really really dread it. I am sure to hear people asking me whether i have a boyfriend or when i am geting married or what my ambition and stuff like that.
Arghh!!
I will find myself repeating over the same things over and over again.
I really have to watch out about my tongue. They are really sarcastic..
Another thing i dread is to ask for forgiveness.
I am NOT the type who is emotional.
How am i suppose to ask for forgiveness?
Damn!
Arghh!!!!
