It's been almost 2 weeks since my parents left.
Its the most horrible 2 wks ever in my life. Well, except for my birthday. Hehe...
I carry a very heavy burden.
I am expected to run the house but i have no help at all.
I controlled all the money and expenses in my house for the time being.
OK, this is all not stressful.
Everyday, i have a job. Be it tuition or relief teaching or sometimes even both in one day.
Going to work is already pressurizing.
I have to face those noisy kids which seemed to have endless amount of energy.
I scolded them for awhile but they resumed their mischief one second later.
I have sore throat by the end of the day.
If for tuition, the kid is very playful.
He keeps fidgeting abt in hi seat as if there are worms in his butts.
I really feel like glueing his butt to the chair.
Furthermore, he keeps talking abt Kunda and that makes me distracted and forgot what i want to teach him.
Arghh!!!
Stupid Kunda. Why must he have such a great impact on me?
Then everyday, i have to wash clothes, vacuum the house, mop the floor, wash the dishes and make the beds.
If i have teaching, my housework will put on hold and i will only finished it during night time.
Luckily, i did not have to cook. Coz i dunnoe how to cook.
Once, i fried some nuggets andchicken wings.
It is an easy job and i have done it many times but still i got oil pooping to my skin. How stupid can i be in cooking?
Just because i dunnoe how to cook, i got many sarcasm abt it.
Many ppl told me that i am lazy, nv put it effort, etc.
I tried cooking but i juz cant!
I am not lazy. I am very,very tired. Does anyone know that?
What right do they have to say such things to me?
Even though i may joke abt it and put on a smile, those words really hurt.
Fortunately, my aunt offered to cook and my brother and i always eat out at her place and also hang out there.
Now, my grandfather will be coming to stay in my house on the 2nd Feb till my parents got home which is not the 11 Feb.
I feel more stressful.
It is already enough that my brother, the middle one, criticize me that i always depend on my aunt and is too lazy to cook.
Actually, i dun wan to depend on my aunt.
But she insisted. How can i refuse her when she called me everyday and told me that she had already cooked for us?
I am troubled abt my grandfather.
Many ppl wonder what is the big problem.
It is just that i am worried how am i supposed to feed him.
Furthermore, i am always working.
How am i suppose to attend to him?
Must i stopped taking relief just becoz of this?
If i do, where am i suppose to get the money to support myself?
Well, if anyone were to read this, they may think that it is just a small problem and can be solved easily.
But in reality, it is not.
I really dunnoe what to do.
I just feel that my freedom is being restricted.
I just want to run away and never come back.
I am tired from this.
Just give me a break.
I doubt i can ever do that..
