Yoz, its been quite awhile since i updated my blog.
Hehe... Guess my life had been too bored that i absolutely had nothing interesting to write about.

I remembered that i talked about attracting guys with Xy.
I told her that i do not want to attract the wrong kind of guys like she did. Haha...
But guess wad?
This morning, i opened my mail, i saw a message from a man called Anba in my friendster account.
I opened the message wondering who he was.
When i opened the message, my blood instantly ran cold.
I checked out the guy.
He was 30+ and is already married with kids!
And he had the nerve to befriend me!
He wrote that he could take off his eyes off my picture and that i am one of the prettiest girl in the region.
He wanted me to reply back and gave him some form of contact.
I was damn scared when i read the mesage.
I am sure dam right crazy if i ever replied tat cheeky old indian coot message!
I immediately deleted the message and cahnge my picture of my friendster to Kunda's pic.
I feel much safer.
If any guys still got attracted to me when they saw Kd's pic, i have nothing to say.
I dun think my face is similar to Kd's, right? Not even close, right?
I really hope so.

This is not the 1st time i got this type of invitation from guys to befriend me.
The guys ranged from yound till old.

Is my picture so darn attractive?
I am glad that i finally changed the pic.
I am having a phobia of putting my pic ever again!

Today had been a very lazy day.
I am so lazy that i cancelled my tuition this afternoon for tomorrow morning.

In the afternoon, i was very bored so i watch some vcds.
First, i watch Shinhwa MV vcd.
Thei dances are so cool! So united...
Furthermore, Dongwan is so handsome!
His voice is very alluring and soothing to hear.

After that, i watch Eg Mv vcd.
My bro kept blocking my view everytime Kunda appeared on screen.
After he got yelled at by me, he began to taunt me in another way.
Guess wad he did?
I was watching Come On mv and he kept imitating whatever Kunda did.
Not only that Mv, he still imitate Kd in many other Mvs.
The most funniest one was when he imitated Kunda in Fang Shou Mv.
When Kunda spin, he spinned.
When Kd jump, he jumped.
In Wu Xie Ke Ji Mv, there was one part where Kd kind of punch a bad guy.
He followed the same and almost hit my face.

After that, i switched off the Mv and went to switch to Inuyasha Vcd and watch my favourite and most handsome youkai, Sesshoumaru! Hehe...

For the past 2 days, i had been going shopping for the whole day.

On thursday, after my tuition, i went to Johor with a relative of mine to shop.
We went to City Square.
First stop was to the Popular bookstore where she wanted to get some malay dictionaries for her P3 son. We spent about half an hour there.
After that, we went to CD-rama next to it and check out the Korean, Japanese and Taiwan dramas. She got all excited when she saw this sappy Korean love drama series which the guys kept crying every 5 minutes, Stairway To Heaven was sold there. She practically squeezed my poor thin arm...Haha...But in the end she did not buy...
Then after that, we went to a CD store nearby coz i want to buy Inuyasha movie but to no avail.
Then, We went to the food court and we ate Japanese food.
The guy who served us is very CUTE!! And very sweet.Hmm...Cant say that he is handsome tho. He kept smiling at us. Not only that, he got dimples! Haiz... Reminds me Kunda... My type of guy... Haha...

After eating, we resumed shopping.
We stopped by Times coz she wanted to buy a hairstyling book.
We spent abt half an hour there too.
After that, i led her to this part of the mall where they sell jap-style clothes. I went there coz i wanted to buy this Snoopy long-sleeved which cost RM48.
We strolled along and passed a VCD shop where i bought my bro's movies - Spongebob Movie, Mickey Mouse Movie, Son of the Mask, Shinhwa Winter Story Concert and Energy Dvd.
All in all, i spent RM 44 on Dvds!

We went off and walked around.
We went to another Vcd store and i finally found my Inuyasha Movie but i gt no money left.
She borrowed me some money and i managed to buy it! Hehe....
We walked and i let her to this boutique where we spent almost 1 hr or more.
I was dragged around the shop and waited and gave comments for her one after another. She kept trying out and i was standing there.
She bought 2 pants which cost about RM 178 and RM 198 each but they were at half price.
Then we went to Mango and she also tried a few pants.
In the end she bought a pair of pants which cost RM 124.
After that, we went to the food court and she bought food home for her husband and son.
Then we finally came home.
I reached home at about 9+ pm.

Then today, after tuition, i went to Far East immediately.
I met Xy and Ching Hwa there.
We went to eat at Lvl 4.
They were forcing me to eat!
I managed to eat half of the plate of the chicken rice. That is already good enough coz initially i haf no intention to eat.
Not only that, they forced me to eat the fried wanton!
They kept continuing talking abt the poor ppl in the poor countries which i heard so many times that i lost count. Thn, they started to talk abt Kd feeding me which makes me lost my appetite almost immediately. Wrong move!
Then, we went to walk around the mall.
Xy wanted to get a haircut and so we waited for her.
After that, we waited for Ching hwa's friend to arrive.
We walked around and took neoprints.
The pictures are all very nice! But it will be nicer if i was not there. I make the pictures imperfect. Hehe....
Then, we continued walking around until abt 7pm.
Ching Hwa's friend and her sis went home and we continued our shopping.
We went to Heeren coz Ching Hwa wanted to buy beach slippers.
We went to alot of shops and we even went to Cineleisure to search for her slippers.
Haha.... Finally, she set her mind on a pair of Adidas slippers. Hehe...
We sat down and started to talk.
We were talking about Ching Hwa's bf and then sumhow moved on to Kd's body and then we started to talk about the differences of the rituals in our religion when it comes to death.
After that, i dragged them to HMV and bought Shinhwa Best Compilation Cd which had their MVs.. It cost $12.95 which is pretty cheap compared to other music stores which cost $21.
After that, we went home.
I have no idea what i was thinking of but somehow i boarded the wrong train which was headed to Marina Bay!
Haizz...
I only realized it when i was at Raffles' City Station.
How blur can i get?

I recently bought Shinhwa latest cd.
The songs are simply wonderful.
Listening to the songs makes me want to dance, releasing all my problems.

But there is this one particular song.
The song is very soothing and the meaning is very romantic.
I hope my future husband will be able to fulfill what is written in this song on my wedding day.I hope is will be able to say these things to me...

Angel
Translation by: eebyul (also credit: aheeyah.com)

The long awaited time has come
You've heard my deepest feelings for you
Maybe we had no other choice but to love since the start
You are wearing a bright wedding dress
My trembling hearts seems like it'll explode
I slip a ring onto your fourth finger

*CHORUS*
Close your eyes, listen to my heart, live with me forever
In the morning, wake me up with your voice
Hug me once a day, tell me that you love me
Always look into my eyes and tell meI will stay at the same place since the beginning
When the tears hurt youI will always be your strength
I promise you that you are my everything
I'm please just let me know
Beautiful eyes, nose, lips.. those lips you so beautiful, I kiss you as you are asleep
Brighter than the morning dew..
Even when we are together
I miss you
You are my everything, my reason to live
When I look at you I'm way up in the sky
I can't fall down, I can't let you down,I must admit that I'm in love with you
I wanna kiss you

*Repeat
I kneel down before you and I sing to you
Myself reflected in your eyes looks so happy
I'll make you smile again I finally miss you.
I love you, I cant help it
You are my angel, I'm your guardian angel
No matter what happens, I won't hurt you
I promise you, when you come to me
I'll make you happy
No matter what happens,
I'lll be on your side
I will give my entire day to you
I will make you use every part of it
I will walk following with your footstepsJust be at the same place since the beginning..

Today is a rainy day.
Nothing much happened today.
I went to my usual driving lesson in the morning.
I managed to do vertical parking! Hehe...
Yeah! I am closer to get my expensive and life-long driving license..
After the practical, i went to th driving stimulator where i got to sit in an arcade car and drove.It reminded me so much of the arcade. Hehe...Now, the next time i go arcade, i am going to try driving the car games MANUALLY!!

I took a nap since there is no school calling me today.
After a nap, i went to the library to return my almost overdued books.
I asked my brother whether he wanted to come along with me but he refused.
Then my mom asked me to ask my cousin but i told her that she might be working.
Then my mom told me to ask my boyfriend to accompany me.
My brother chipped in saying that i should go and call him now.
I rollled my eyes and told them that he was so far away and the flight ride itself is long.

My mom told me to dress up nicely so that guys would take notice of me.
I replied that i do not like to dress up to attract guys.
Well, in my opinion, if the guy truly like me, he wun mind what i wear right?
Haha....
Seriously, i think i should get a boyfriend sometime soon so that people would stop asking this ridiculous questions.
Someone tall, fair and fit who has a sweet yet cheeky nature.
Anyone fits the bill? Leave me a message...
Haha....

Today is the start of the new school term.
Haha..
I know there is nothing to do with me but when school starts it means i have to work.
Haiz...
I am very lazy to work.
But what to do, living in Singapore means we cant laze around without any purpose.
Furthermore living here is very expansive.
There is nothing free in Singapore.

Unfortunately, i rejected a call from Fuchun Primary today.
Why?
Coz i sumhow injured my right foot.
It very painful when i tried to walk or bend my foot.
I have no idea how i got hurt.
It was ok when i played basketball yesterday.
It was ok when i went to sleep yesterday nite.
It started to get painful in the middle of the night.
I think i let my foot exposed to the fan which was blowing directly at it. I did not cover myself properly.

Yesterday night, I slept early, around 12am.
I had a headache and started to sneeze non-stop for whatever reasons that my mom commented.
My eyes were watery and my nose started running.
I read a few chapters of my book and turned in early, really in no mood to talk to anyone.
Furthermore, i only eat french fries which i bought when i get back from basketball as my breakfast, lunch and dinner.

I am ok today but only the pain in my right foot.
Hmm... I think i got cramps.
Early this morning, i had practical driving.
I learnt how to parked my car vertically.
I manage to did after being corrected sternly a few times.
Even though my foot was screaming in pain.
I ant cancel the lesson last minute and i cant skip the lesson.
Therefore i had to endure the pain. I sprayed the deep heat spray on my foot until it felt numbed.
Oh yeah, i felt bad at lying too.
The instructor is a nice one.
He asked me how many 'A's i have.
I thot he meant how many A level passes i have so i said i got 3.
He took it as i have 3 straight 'A's...
I wanted to correct him but he went on and on about his family and stuff that i have no chance to correct it.
He looked so proud that malays got such results that i do not have the heart to disappoint him.
When i get home, i felt bad at lying to him.
Its' all a white lie...I cant help feeling guilty.

Today's date is the 18 of March...
A meaningful day today....Haha...
Y? Coz today is Kunda's birthday as wad xy call him, my boi boi....

I went to Princess Classics at S'pore Expo at 3.30pm.
Well, we were late for abt 10 mins coz we gt lost... Hehe...
The show was spectacular!
There were Aladdin, Snow White, Mulan, Little Mermaid, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty and Beauty and the Beast. Oh yeah, there is Mickey and Minnie Mouse too...
Out of all the princess classics, i luv Mulan the most...
But the most awesome performance i seen was the Little Mermaid.
Prince Eric kept lifting Ariel up high in the sky and twirl round and round..
It was simply breath-taking!
No words could describe how wonderful it is.
But the others were also simply fantastic.
Their moves were like as if they were dancing on air.
Their costumes are beautiful!
I luv the Mulan wedding gown.
Simply yet elegant.
Hmm.... If only i could wear that during my wedding day!
For the whole of 2 hours or so, i was in complete fantasy world.
Wishing i am one of the princesses.. Haha...
But then, the food and the things there are very expensive.
I bought a box of popcorn for $6!
I thought of buying a drink but it cost $14!
My thirst was immediately quenched when i saw the price. Hehe....

After the show, we went to explore other halls.
The next hall had an Adiddas sale.
I bought a bag which originally $39 but it was sold at $20.
I thot of buying a pair of basketball shoes but i could not find them.
When i was halfway towards the mrt station, i asked my bro whether he saw a basketball sold anywhere. He said there is but it was deflated. Haizz.... I guess i am too blur to sift thru the display of balls....Haha...

After that, we went to Kids Connection in one of the halls.
There were many things that i wanted to buy but i simply have no money!
All i bought was Ultraman Tiga the Movie part 2.
Hehe... Typical of me right?

After that, we went home to Tampines where we went to eat at Long John's Silver.
After that, we went home.

All in all, I had a great time.
I really enjoyed the day today.
I can get enough of the Princess Classics...
Hehe...
Well, never mind, I am a princess in my own story which is none other than my life.
I am still waiting for my prince charming.... Hehe...
Coincidentally, today is Kd's birthday..
Which means, i am doubly happy!

Friends?
What are they exactly?
They are a bunch of strangers which more often than not make a great impact on our lives.
Recently, I see and hear many problems concerning friendships.
It makes the value of friendship cheap. So cheap and so unimportant that it can be broken and threw away in an instant.
There are people who will put their heart and soul in a friendship, fighting their tooth and nail for the sake of it.
Some even gave up their luv for the sake of friendship.
I see many kinds of friendships.
I had seen a true friendship between 2 people whereby they both shared a special bond which no one will comprehend except them.
They would have won the Best Friends Contest hands down if they even entered.
I had seen friendships being broken juz because of some petty stuff which is practically history.The one who falls victim in this broken friendship is one who is willing to give everything she has to salvage a relationship which is way beyond repair. Its really not worth it.
I juz hope that she will realize tat these people are not meant to be her friends. Look for other people who are deserved your precious friendship.
Hmmm....
I know that i am juz preaching and is clever at giving advices but I nv really carried it out myself.
I have been through much more painful and had encountered more broken friendships. Never once do i let it daunt me.
I have let people whom i trust took advantage of me. I let them used me. I let them make a fool out of me. I let them step over whatever piece of heart i have in me.
My heart grew numb with each broken friendship that i had.
A smile on my face,
A positive thought in my mind,
Is all that it takes for me to get of this emotional mess,
That resulted in broken friendships.
I never believed in best friends any more ever since primary school which i gt betrayed before.
Despite that, i tried my best to look for friends, make more friends even i know i would not be able to hold that friendship for more that a couple of years.
I believe that people come and go in our life.
They hurt me and they left my life.
Therefore, its time to start a new chapter in my life.
Looking forward for much better and exciting things that is in store in my life.
I have been living my life
All alone
Without the support and care of friends
Nevertheless
I have been happy and contented with my life
Because of this important reason
The reason being
I am alive
I am juz happy to be alive and see all the wonderful things on earth.

I woke up at 11 today.
Bathe and went out at 12.10 pm. I thought i was late.
Boy, was i wrong!
I was the earliest!
I gt a message frm Fristin that they will b cuming at 2pm.
I was standing there like an idiot for quite some time until i lost my patience and left at 1.30 sharp.I even switched of my phone. Dunnoe wad cross my mind to do it.
I think i lost my patience because i did not eat. I usually nv lose my patience this easily.
After buying the tixs to Disney Classics, Xy and I went to wait for the 2 girls.
After they arrived, we went to eat at Far East Plaza.
It is funny why i feel full after looking at the food. Maybe they were talking abt Kd that is making lose my appetite. Haha...
After eating, Fristin wanted to pierce her ear. Well she did and she was very scared.
She was practically crying after the pierce.
I also pierced my ear. My left ear.
It was painful but i gt used to it after some time.
Xy laugh at my reaction. I only say, "ouch" when the lady pierce it on my ear.
After that, we went 77th street and i bought a pair of earrings and a white belt.
We went to talk a picture. A neo print. Hehe... When i asked Fristin whether she wants to take or not, she replied, "Shuwei wun mind me taking a few more pictures." Haha...
After that, we went to walk around and the two 'princesses' bought quite a few expensive stuff.
I wanted to go Heeren to look for the spongebob movie.
On the way there, we ate ice-cream and talked.
I found the movie but it cost $52.90!
Whoa! So expensive!
We went to listen to sum cds. I listened to BAD. I fall in love with their songs! Haha....I only fall in love with their song not the people. So... people out there no need to get jealous, ok? Haha...
I watched the 5566 concert that was shown and saw Xiezhi making a fool with himself, dancing half naked on stage. Well, if his body is muscular, i dun mind watching... But he is skinny and short. No hope...
After that, we went to converse shop and the 2 princessess decided whether want to buy a bag or not.
We went to shop to shop searching for a pink bag for Fristin. Then i saw a bandanna and comment it to Xy. I looked at the price and it was $27! Imagine wearing a $27 bandanna on ur head juz to play bball!
After that, we went to cineleisure to rest.
The princesses wen to buy food while the 2 royal guards when to buy drinks.
When we went back, it was the start of chaos.
Xy started to laugh when she look at me. Then Tina looked at her laughing and she started laughing. Fristin looked at Tina and she too started laughing. I looked up from the drink and saw thm laughing. I said, "Huh?" and Xy laughed harder.
I was staring at the 3 of them in complete blurness.
The other tables were looking at us. haiz...
Up till now i haf no idea wad they are laughing abt. They laugh till they got jaw pain(Xy) stomach pain(Fristin)and heart pain(Tina).
Wad pain i got? Head pain. Y? I am confused y they are laughing so hard abt.
After that, we went to More Than Words and bought a few things.
Then we went back home.
I had a fun day today.
Evn tho i haf no idea wad happen half of the time. Haha....
To think they blame it on Kunda who is also as blur as me which i dun think he is blur at all.

Hmm.... I have nothing to write about actually.
It's been a boring day for me.
When i woke up from my nap, i felt irritated.
As usual, i felt tears on my cheeks.
I wonder when will i ever stop crying in my sleep..

I remember one of the dreams that i had.
The rest of the dreams, i can't remember.
Here goes...

I was on an extremely high cliff.
I was down on my stomach and i was grabbing someone's hand tightly.
The person was a guy. The guy was fair, tall, fit and had shoulder-length hair.
He was dangling on the cliff and i was trying to pull him up.
While doing that, i could feel myself slipping down.
The guy realized that too and put his free hand on my hand which was holding him.
He said, "Let go of me. Save yourself."
I shook my head, refusing to let go.
He gave me a smile, a sad smile.
Slowly, he pried my fingers one by one.
Our eyes met for the last time.
He said, "Goodbye, Lin. I will always love you."
With that, he fell down the cliff.
I watch the scene in despair.
Then i woke up, my tears and nose running.
Who on earth is that guy?
I have been wondering who he is and why i have been crying when i woke up for these past few weeks.
I could not get the picture out of my mine.
It seemed so real.
Weird, weird...

Early in the morning, i got driving lesson.
Lucky he instuctor was nice.
Well, i did get scolded but it was my fault because i m the one who made the mistake and i admit it.
Then, i went home and receive a call from Si Ling Primary for relief in the afternoon.
I took a nap for awhile.
When i woke up, i immediately went to prepare myself for work.
Hmm... Come to think of it, i didn't have any breakfast.
I only eat at 3pm in the afternoon.
I ate 2 bread and a muffin.
The class today is rather eventful.
I only a few kids crying in my class.
First, a boy cried because his throat hurts.
I ask him to go home but he refused.
Then, a girl cried.
I forget y.
Then another boy cry because his malay teacher did not let him help her carry her books as he was naughty in malay class.
I had a hard time asking the boy to shut up.
It almost took me one whole hour to shut him up. Haizz....
After school, my parents met me outside school and we went to Causeway Point.
We ate KFC.
After my parents bought some stuff at cold storage, we went to TS.
My brother bought Mulan 2 and i was debating whether i should buy Legend of Speed, Phoenix or this korean drama.
I was asking my mom and she was going on and on about how wasteful it is.
But i told her that all my money goes to the BBDC and i did not have any money to spend on myself or in other words pamper myself.
She finally say that it is up to me how i use my money.
I went to the shelf and stared at the 3 vcds for a long time.
Finally, i bought Phoenix. I have been wanting to buy that Vcd for such a long time because it starred one of the members of my favourite Korean boyband, Shinhwa,Eric.
I also joined to be a member of TS as i know that i love to buy Vcds.
Guess how much i spent? I spent the whole of my pay for today to buy that particular VCD.
I think i am going to buy Legend of speed next month.
Hmm... I wonder y it doesn't cross my mind to buy Nan Ding Ge Er since it starred my beloved "boyfriend", Kunda.
I guess i will torture my familt into watching that show over and over again if i ever buy that show. Well, I do not want to get kick out of the house because of Kunda. Where will go then? Haha...

A very boring day today.
No action at all.
All i did today is sleep.
Hahaha....
Still cant get fat tho.
I have practical lesson tomorrow.
I hope tat i do not get the instructor tat i cant click.
Really, really hope so...

Today i had driving practical lesson aftr last monday.
I had the instructor that i dislike.
I also have a feeling that the feeling is mutual coz he looks kind of unhappy whn he saw me.
The 2 of us rarely talked throughout the practical.
The only times he talk was to give me instructions and when he scolded me.
I caught him sleeping when i was driving and i purposely brake hard to wake him up.
Well, i gt scolded for that.
I remember wat he told me.
"I have told u to be near to the right when doing a right turn. Which part of it do u not understand?"
"I told u to be 1 metre away frm the car. Which part of it u dun understand?"
He also asked me why i nv wear tudung today. i replied i gt bball practice.
He is so busybody.
He said a lot of hurting remarks.
There was one incident where he kept quiet so i juz continue to drive on.
i changed lanes and wanted to change back but there is cars both in frnt and behind me so i cant go back. I stayed in my lane which happene to be a lane for right turns only. He didnt say anything so i dunnoe where to go. He snapped frm his daze or slp whichever it is and started to scold me. He told me that next time i should ask questions when i am not sure. The fact is, i know wat i am doing but i dunnoe where to go. I was juz confused where to go not that i am confused how to drive.
I know all all the techniques by heart.I was taken aback by his scolding and so i unconsciously make a confused face. I bit my lips and my eyebrows scrunched up together.
He looked irritated and say harshly, "Don't give me that face."
I was more taken aback by it. I am bot giving him any face! That is the face that i always do when i am in deep thoughts or trying to figure out how to correct my mistakes. Its not that i wan to cry or wad. I practically ignored him so i was very shocked when i heard that.
We stilll gt 15 or more minutes left when he told me to return to BBDC. So i ended up circling the circuit over and over again, lost in my thoughts.
I was very glad to b out of that car the moment i heard the bell rang.
I dunnoe y but Kunda's face flashed in my mind when he started to scold me. I was wishing that Kd was there with me when he talked to me that way. I dunnoe y.

After that, i made my way to Xy house to play bball.
I gt a msg frm Fart that she was sick.
One after another, i gt shocking news from my frens.
First Siti, thn Fart.
I wonder who next?
The weather was rainy and sunny so i thought it will be best to cancel the practice even though i am already there.
I msg Xy abt it.
Bt she insist in cuming down. Without knowing it, I felt tears running through my cheeks.
I cried becoz i cld c that my life is crumbling rite b4 me. Everything i do turns out wrg.
My a levels, my driving lessons, my life.
I know i kept running away. I dunnoe wat else to do.My future is deeply uncertain.
I am scared. Terribly scared.

Today my results is out.
I am not pressured but because people kept asking me abt it, i becum irritated and nervous.
I switch off my phone the whole day but switched it on for a few mins to see if there are any mgs from my parents. But all i get are messages asking abt my results.

I really am uncomfortable coz people expects a lot from me and i always let them down.
I dun like tat feeling.

How is my results?
It is bad. Extremely bad.
Even tho i passed and had a full cert, it is not sumthing which i am proud of.
The moment i gt my result, i haf no idea wad to react.
I wan to cry, no tears came out.
I wan to laugh,no voice came out.
I am juz.... expressionless.
I really hope tat I can go or scrap thru uni.
If not then, i juz look for a job or something.

Name: 山下　リンダ
DOB: 20 January .

Hobby: Surfing net, reading, listening to music

Fav Boys:Aiba Masaki, Akanishi Jin, Yamashita Tomohisa(Guys),

Fav Food & Drink:Chocolate & Cha Soba(food), Green tea (drink)

Fav Doramas: Nobuta Wo Produce, Gokusen 1 & 2, Dragon Zakura

Fav Songs: Hesitate, It Can't Be, Murasaki by Jin Akanishi, ButterflyーKattun,Himawari,Snow Express, Weeek Daite Senorita, Love Song, Colourful- Yamapi, Right Back to You, Wish, Harukaze Sneakers, Subarashi Sekai-Arashi, Itsuka No Summer- Aiba Masaki