Today i had driving practical lesson aftr last monday.
I had the instructor that i dislike.
I also have a feeling that the feeling is mutual coz he looks kind of unhappy whn he saw me.
The 2 of us rarely talked throughout the practical.
The only times he talk was to give me instructions and when he scolded me.
I caught him sleeping when i was driving and i purposely brake hard to wake him up.
Well, i gt scolded for that.
I remember wat he told me.
"I have told u to be near to the right when doing a right turn. Which part of it do u not understand?"
"I told u to be 1 metre away frm the car. Which part of it u dun understand?"
He also asked me why i nv wear tudung today. i replied i gt bball practice.
He is so busybody.
He said a lot of hurting remarks.
There was one incident where he kept quiet so i juz continue to drive on.
i changed lanes and wanted to change back but there is cars both in frnt and behind me so i cant go back. I stayed in my lane which happene to be a lane for right turns only. He didnt say anything so i dunnoe where to go. He snapped frm his daze or slp whichever it is and started to scold me. He told me that next time i should ask questions when i am not sure. The fact is, i know wat i am doing but i dunnoe where to go. I was juz confused where to go not that i am confused how to drive.
I know all all the techniques by heart.I was taken aback by his scolding and so i unconsciously make a confused face. I bit my lips and my eyebrows scrunched up together.
He looked irritated and say harshly, "Don't give me that face."
I was more taken aback by it. I am bot giving him any face! That is the face that i always do when i am in deep thoughts or trying to figure out how to correct my mistakes. Its not that i wan to cry or wad. I practically ignored him so i was very shocked when i heard that.
We stilll gt 15 or more minutes left when he told me to return to BBDC. So i ended up circling the circuit over and over again, lost in my thoughts.
I was very glad to b out of that car the moment i heard the bell rang.
I dunnoe y but Kunda's face flashed in my mind when he started to scold me. I was wishing that Kd was there with me when he talked to me that way. I dunnoe y.
After that, i made my way to Xy house to play bball.
I gt a msg frm Fart that she was sick.
One after another, i gt shocking news from my frens.
First Siti, thn Fart.
I wonder who next?
The weather was rainy and sunny so i thought it will be best to cancel the practice even though i am already there.
I msg Xy abt it.
Bt she insist in cuming down. Without knowing it, I felt tears running through my cheeks.
I cried becoz i cld c that my life is crumbling rite b4 me. Everything i do turns out wrg.
My a levels, my driving lessons, my life.
I know i kept running away. I dunnoe wat else to do.My future is deeply uncertain.
I am scared. Terribly scared.
