♥Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Yesterday, i had my driving test.
Well, I failed.
The tester was an old greying man.
I knew that i was bound to fail as soon as i entered the car and saw his scowling face.
He kept rushing me and told me the instructions more than once as if i am deaf or dumb.
Humphh!
He told me that i hit the kerb during the S course.
I juz nodded, too lazy to argue.
I never hit the kerb before during the S course in my revision exercises.
Whatever he say, i too lazy to retort back.
I guess my driving will have to put on hold while i go find some money to continue.
Haizz...and people thought that my family is filthy rich!
Haha...
Lately, my life had been going downhill.
Ever since that rejection, my temper had been short and unstable.
Very unstable.
To tell you the truth, I hate myself.
I see no talents, only flaws.
All the things i do only serves to be rejected.
Is there really such a thing as there is a silver lining in every cloud?
♥Wednesday, June 15, 2005
On sunday, i went to Energy's autograph session.
I was excited of coz!
It's been so long since i last saw them.
Miz them lots!
Siti was kinda sickly looking.
When we were waiting for Eg to come, Siti told me tt she felt like fainting.
I told her tat if she fainted, i would do cpr on her.But she refused.
I even told her tat my lips are sof and not to worry coz i m a qualified first aider.
Haha...
Eg came late.
We took videos and pics of them.
There was a man behing me who kept knocking my head to lower my camera.
Please lah, as if u take their pics coz u like them.
Siti ate sushi and choked on a fish bone.
She tried to eat stuff but to no avail.
When we went up the stage, my cousin went first then me then Siti, Xy n so on.
My cousin shook hands with Shuwei and he replied thanks in chinese.
Next was me.
He held out his hand and i was kind of surprised. I glanced at his hand and figured which hand to shake his.
He smiled and i told him Jia You.
He nodded and said thanks.
Next was Kunda.
I was kind of stunned standing in front of him.
The first thing i noticed was his scar on his wrist.
I feel like touching it.
I pried my eyes from it and looked at him.
The 1st thing i thought was did he ever shave in the morning?
He stared at me which a grin on his face.
I replied back his grin.
He struck out his hand eagerly.
I took his hand and shook his hand and told him the same thing like i tell Shuwei.
Then, my cousin pinched my butt.
I think i jumped a little and glared at her.
I trid to pinched her back but i only managed to pinch her jeans pocket.
I looked at him and he signed.
Then next was Ah Di.
He looked at me and was smiling at me knowingly.
Maybe he saw me getting pinched? Hehe...
I told him the same thing and shook his hand.
While i was shaking his hand, i heard Niu Nai saying Ni hao 2 times.
I was wondering wad happen and looked sideways.
Then, my cousin when off and Niu Nai shook my hand with both hands.
Then i waited for my booklet.
But i was surprised tat Niu Nai held out his hand again.I looked at him again and he shook my hand again at the same time he shook his hand with Siti.
After the session, we went to wait for Eg to leave.
We watched the minibus leave.
Niu Nai was waving energetically at us.
Hehe...
After tht,we went to far east for food and shop.
;p My longing for Kunda finally got cured already.
Hehe...
Last wednesday, my family and i went for a holiday.
First we went to Muar, Johor to visit my uncle.
We spent the whole day and night watching, guess wad, lame ghost stories.
Instead of being scared, we laughed whenever the ghost appeared.
Haha...
The next day, early morning, we went to Cameron highlands.
The journey was very long and the road kept winding.
I almost got carsick.
Furthermore, my bro kept lamenting that there were no reception.
My uncle and my father drove around the mountains trying to find lodging.
At last, we managed to find a chalet name Marina's chalet.
Haha....After my mother's name..
It was pretty cheap. It is actually a house. In front of the rooms there is a swing where we played.
Exactly at 12 midnight, i msg Xy to wish her happy birthday.
It was so cold that my fingers were shaking when i typed the message.
The next day, we went out to explore Cameron highlands.
It was very,extremely cold.
We went to Strawberry farm where we bought strawberry tea.
Then we went to tea factories.
But the tea factory tat we went was not in operation coz they are drying the tea leaves.
The tea factory name is Blue Valley.
Then we went to a Butterfly park which no one went in.
I dislike insects!
Then, we went to the road side market to buy things or souvenirs.
At night, we went to the town and explore.
There was no shopping centre at all!!
Haha...
Back at the chalet, i went to the swing hoping to have a peaceful moment and wistfully thinking of Energy who were in Sinagpore at that moment.
Unfortunately, my bros and my cousin went to sit at the swing and started to talk.
My peaceful moment vanish into thin air...Haha...
The next day, we started to go back.
Before going back, we visited 2 more tea factory.
Cameron Valley and Boh tea.
The scenary is spectacular.
The air is cold and fresh.
At the Boh Tea factory, there was a hill where we can climb to see the scenery.
I climb halfway and my legs turned to jelly.
I practically haf to crawl back down.
I saw the surrounding and was scared out of my wits.
It was so high!
My cousins and my bros climb up and shouted, Singapore!
Haha...They got the nerve to do tat.
On the way down the mountain, i started to feel like going to the toilet.
My parents kept stopping to buy vegetables.
I was whining and complaining that my bro threatened that i go pee in the bushes.
Finally, we reached this waterfall.
I immediately flew out of the car to go to the toilet.
Haha...
The whole thing was memorable. Haha...
I cant upload my pics coz my comp broke down and i m using my cousin compt.
♥Sunday, June 05, 2005
Yes!
Finally i managed to change the song!
After so much trouble...Haizz...
My mood changes easily like the wind.
My mind is blank.
Everyone is trying to console me and i answered back with a smile.
In actual fact, i am trying my best to forget it.
It hurts me more when ppl still asked me abt it.
I m still trying to accept it.
Trying to console myself that i am not the only one.
I know tat i had made my mom cried.
I know tat i made many others disappointed.
I know tat i had let so many down.
It eats me so much inside.
Forget the troubles?
It is easier said than done.
Now, i am trying to cure myself by listening to Energy!
Haha...
I am trying to trust myself.
I am trying to move on.
It is harder than i thought.
Everyone says that i am strong.
I hope that it is true...
