♥Friday, September 30, 2005
This is plain stupid.
I feel angry at nobody.
Everything i do is wrong.
Everything i say is wrong.
Then wad is right?
I am plain tired.
I am so tired.
So tired tat i can cry on the spot.
Nobody undertands what my problem is.
Even me myself.
I haf no one to talk to.
No one that i feel comfortable to talk to.
This is plain stupid.
♥Tuesday, September 27, 2005
I feel very lonely.
I need some one to talk to.
Many offered but i dun take their offer
Why?
Coz they themselves have problems which they dun share wif others.
So why should i share mine?
I am tired
Extremely tired
Not physically but more mentally and emotionally
Tired of longing
Tired of looking for someone
Tired of false pretences
Tired of being a hypocrite
I feel like curling up into a ball
Locked up in my room
Crying
Crying for my bleeding heart
Which suffered silently without
Anyone knowing
I wish, sincerely wish for someone who can let me rest.
But when?
That i do not know.
All i know is that i haf to continue wishing and looking for the person tiredlessly.
People say tat what you do makes what you are.
Your actions, your speech and your attititude are always being judged wherever u go.
It terrible but unfortunately it's terribly true.
I get critizism no matter what I do
People also say that no man is an island.
We cannot live without others.
Is this so?
Then tell me coz i am having doubts about it.
Life is never a bed of roses.
Even if it is, u still will b prick by the thorns.
Whether its in love or war,
Everything is just not fair.
Friends say that they will be there for u
No matter what you go thru
Try as I might,
I will never haf friends as true as those in the stories
Stories will always remain as fairytales
Life is just like a book
The people i meet
The things that i encountered
Is nothing more than just a chapter in my book
Anger, frustations, sad and happy
Everyone is entitled to tat
I can never let them out
Coz life is never fair
Everything i faces life with a mask
Being juz another hypocrite
Like everyone else in the planet
♥Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Today, i juz had my first experience wif a rude person over the telephone.
I often heard complains frm my seniors colleagues abt having rude people asking about info from us.
Today,i had an aircraft whose estimated time was one hour different from wad the computer showed us.
So i called the airline company to ensure the timing.
The idiotic operator had the nerve to scold me and questioned me abt how we do our job and then she slammed the phone down.
So rude!
All i did was standard procedure where i am supposed to follow.
Haha...
I guess this will not only b my last one tho..
♥Saturday, September 17, 2005
Just now, i bought a new ultraman movie.
It's called, "Ultraman the movie 2005"
I juz finished watching it.
Its great!
The animation was simply beautiful!
It's exhilarating!
The way the ultraman flies, the grosteque monster that kept evolving.
It's interesting!
Words cannot describe my feelings.
Hehehe....
During the movie, my bro kept spoiling the movie saying that it's fake and stuff.
Of coz i know it.
But i juz want to fantasize it.
I love Ultraman to bits!
Hehe...
♥Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Today is my bad luck day.
Haha...
Why?
The first thing was i cut my finger while shaving early in the morning at 6.30am.
Then while gg to work, my mom didn't screw the bottle cap properly and the whole water bottle spilled in my bag, wetting my work file, my jacket and my pants.
I was freezing the whole day at work!
The airport is damn cold, as if u r at some US country.
The temperature there is 22.4 degrees!
Then, after work, i called a fren of mine.
I wanted to teased him but i teased the wrong person.
Apparently he left his hp behind and someone picked up the phone for him.
Arghh! It was embarrassing!
Then, on my way back, my aunt and mom kapet calling me to go home faster to check on my bro who didn't pick up the phone.
I knew he was juz sleeping but do they care?
Do they think i gt my own private jet to send me home asap?
Haha....
But all in all, the day is quite all right if we dun count the unfortunate events.
Hahaha...
Tomorrow is another day anyway.
♥Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Yesterday was the day i start work at the airport.
It was rather boring and tiring coz the whole day was spent to know the airport surrounding and meet those who are working there.
We were introduced what our work are in further detail but not fully.
Today, was q very exciting day.
Besides meeting the departmet heads, i get to see the plane side ground.
I get to see the plane land right in front of my eyes and how the corridor was ocked to the plane immediately when it landed so that passengers can go off immediately.
I get to see the how they handled airplanes and also the transit area.
Guess what?
There is a nike shop in the duty free area!
Hmm....I wonder if Energybought their things there. Hehe...
And i get staff discount there to buy things.
I could buy practically anything except cigarettes, wine and beer.
It's cool!
Airport is really one exciting place to be and to work.
♥Friday, September 02, 2005
I am so disappointed.
Why?
It's really demoralizing when you had taught people for a few months and they did not even improved a single bit.
Instead, they are worsening.
I had this sec 2 girl who is EXTREMELY poor in maths.
I taught her for about 4 months already and there is not even a single bit of improvement.
All i see is that she is getting worse and worse.
Whenever i come for tuition, i have to reteach again.
Tuition is actually practicing what you had learnt and understand more of the subject, not a class where the tutor had to teach the subject like some teacher in school.
I really wonder what she is doing in her class when her teacher is teaching her.
It's really frustrating to teach everything all over again in such a short time.
When i asked her is she had any problems, she said that she doesn't have.
But when i gave her some tests, very simple ones, she can't do!
Arghh!!!!
How can i make her understand?
She is AWFULLY quiet.
The other one is Nastain otherwise known as Kd's fav boi.
How he gt that nick?
It's a very long story.... Haha...
He is a very smart boi.
I had tutored him ever since he was pri 2.
His subjects are good but somehow he also began to deterioting.
I wonder why.
These 2 cases is really making me stressed out.
What am i suppose to do?
How can i make their grades better?
Most importantly, where did i go wrong, horribly wrong?
Did i use the wrong methods to teach them?
I have no idea..
On teacher's day, my brother and i together with Kak Noni and Nastain(Kd's fav boi. Hehe....) with to Orchard Cineplex to watch a movie.
As usual, i woke up late and they had to wait for me for almost more than half an hour.
We went to the theatre.
My bro and Nas watched Sharkboy and Lavagirl while Kak Noni and I watched Perfect Catch.
Perfect catch was a funny movie.
It is a contemporary romantic comedy about a high school teacher who meets and falls in love with a successful businesswoman. Although their lives are vastly different, the relationship seems perfect until the baseball season begins and she has to compete with his first true love: the Boston Red Sox.
This story tells us that if u truly love the person, u have to learn how to compromise coz it is very important if we want the relationship to work. Being in a relationship, we have to learnt how to give and take. When we are in a relationship, we have to remember that we should consider others feelings and not only ours.
In this movie, I can see how compromising is very important.
It's a nice story.
After the movie, my bro and I followed her to Heeren, PS and Taka to buy her things.
She was looking for Nas's shoes and she was also looking for bits and pieces coz they are going to Bangkok.
Nas mistook that Bangkok is in Taiwan.
Its was funny. He kept rambling on and on how during tuition he wanted to meet Kd there when i finally set him straight. Bangkok is in Thailand, not Taiwan. Haha...
My bro and I went home around 9.30pm at night.Hehe...
Kak Noni treated the 2 of us.
I really appreaciated it coz my funds are also on the low side... haha...
