Hey!
I juz return from the dance workshop.
It's so fun!
It really worth my money.

I came exactly at 6pm, thinking that i was late but i'm not!
Hehe...
We went in and i make a few friends.
We did some warm-up while Niu Nai did sumthing backstage.
The warm-up was very tiring.
Imagine, u have to do 8 sets of jumping jacks!
Then u have to move ur butt like sum gymnastic person.
Haha...
Oh ya, the woman who taught us the warm-ups is a African-American woman.
She was so cool!
She can really move her body.

Niu Nai came.
All of us were applauding and he then started to teach us dance straightaway without any delays.
He taught us set by set.
He kept asking whether we can catch up or not.
He very sweet!
He kept revising wif us the dance steps.
There was once he turned around and looked at us dance.
All of us dance haywirely!
Dunnoe where our legs,where our hands are.
Haha...
He laugh and continue teaching us all over again slowly.
He also very cheeky...
he asked whether we can dance faster or not.
We replied that we want him to be slower.
But....
He answered, ok. Let's dance faster!
So he asked the music person to switch on to a fast song.
We had no choice but to follow the music.
Haha...

During the workshop, niunai counted the dance steps using english.
He really is a great teacher.
Always encourage us.
He always guide us thru the session.
He will go back to revisethe dance steps again if he saw any of the ppl cant catch up.

After he teach finish, he asked the whole group to divide into 2.
Each group haf to dance wad he taught us.
I thot he's gg to watch but he also dance along wif us.
So sweet!

Finally, after that, he allowed his fans to take a video of him dancing solo.
He told us to take our cameras and gather around him.
I took the video but i forgot to press record.
How stupid can i get?
maybe i was too mesmerized by his dance, i guess....

After the session, we were told to queue up to take a pic wif him.
We took the pic behind the studio.
Yellow and a guy took turns to take the pics.

After the girl in front of me, niunai turned away from me.
I thought he wanted to go somewhere but instead he wanted to put away the letter that the previous fan gave him.
I juz stood there, dunnoe wad to do.
He saw me and beckoned me to come next to him.
So i stood beside him.
I didnt knw that his hand was around me.
Serious!
Somehow, my head kind of leaned against his head.
I kind of felt his hair against mine.
Haha...
He is very nice.
After taking a pic with him, i turned around and thanked him.
He looked so blur!
Haha...

All in all, i really enjoyed the class even tho its short.
I learnt a lot and really hope that he could teach us again next time.
Now, i could use the steps for my performance!
Hehe...

Hmm....
Sorry to disappoint u ppl, but this is not abt my love story.
Haha...
Im writing abt a luv story that i've juz read.
This story is very touching and i cant get it out of my head coz its juz so nice...

The story is abt this girl who is the narrator of the story.
This girl is a wild girl who contracted a liver disease.
During her hospitalization, she knew this doctor who treated hr very nicely.
They both fell in love with each other.
The doctor taught her many things and taught her to change her ways.
She became more closer to her faith becoz of him.
The doctor had a good heart.
He joined the mercy relief for doctors and went to 3rd world countries to help ppl.
The girl was also interested and wanted to follow him to help ppl.
But she had a relapse and was hospitalized.
Her condition grew weaker and had to go through a liver transplant.
When she woke up, she realized that the doctor was nowhere to be seen.
She went to his home and his mom gave her the bad news.
he was killed in Baghdad by a mine bomb.
His body was blown into pieces.
But there is still a piece of him alive.
That is the liver which is inside the girl's body.

Touching rite?

Recently, i attended an orientation in CAAS.
There were quite a number of newcomers attended.
Mostly were AES people (firefighters).

The first day was pretty boring.
We had talks on learning and support, our Mission and stuff.
Then, we went to have lunch with the directors.
I got to eat wif the Senior AM and the Senior AFOM.
Besides that there was 1 AES member and 1 AFO person eating with us.
We chatted on superficial stuff.
After that, we toured around Apron and Baggage which i had went lots of times.
Then after that we get go home!
Hehe....
Guess wad?
That day, i spilled coffee on my jeans!
And i had to have coffee smell throughout the day.
So embarrassing!

The second day was pretty exciting.
We get to go to SATCC and SAA and AES.
SATCC is a really cool place!
All the gadgets are cool.
I wish that i can work there 1 day..
Hehe...

After that, my boss manager called me and told meto go back to Apron to cover coz there were no ppl around.
But how are we gg to go back without transportation?
We were at Changi Village that time.
What does she expect us to do?
Walk back to the airport?
Fat hope!
Anyway, i juz agree and we stayed on till the end of the orientation.
But our mood were affected already.

At SAA, i was walking towards my seat in the auditorium when i didn't see the steps.
I tripp and grabbed hold of my friend in front.
Behind me was a group of AES ppl.
There were like, "Whoa! Relax. Can walk or not?"
I was so embarrased!
After lunch, we went around SAA and took a lot of pics.

All in all, the orientation was ok.
I do get to meet other ppl from other departments.
From the way i listen to their jobscope, i still think that my job is very interesting compared to theirs.
Y?
Hmm...coz theirs are mainly based on paperwork and I hate paperwork!
Haha....

Today,
Linda, Shafiq and I went to CARC for lunch.
I was sitting down quietly waiting for them to take the food.
Linda came with the food while Shafiq came with the drinks.
Guess what?
Shafiq spilled two glasses of fruit punch on me!
My blouse and my pants were soaked with fruit punch!
I quickly went to the bathroom and cleaned up.
Lucky the bathroom had a blowdryer and i wore dark colored clothes.
If not, I'm going to force him to buy me new clothes on the spot!
It was so embarrassing!!!

So in conclusion, i hereby declared myself an accident-prone person.
I guess accident, i mean minor ones, are attracted to me...
Hmmm......
Why muz i attract accidents and not guys?
Hahaha.....
Juz joking!

For the past 2 days, I had been feeling uneasy.
As if something bad is going to happen.
To someone i care about.
I hope that this is just a feelings an i should not read too closely into it.
I honestly hope so.

What should i do?
My cousin asked me out tomorrow to celebrate his birthday.
He wanted to walk around Orchard and go for a midnight movie.
I cant go for the midnight movie coz i haf work the next day.
I don't feel like walking around in Orchard.
I feel that it is a waste of time doing nothing and wasting money.
You are juz tiring urself out.
What should i do?
How can i tell him that walking around Orchard is pointless?
I could not see the fun in it.
People may say that i am boring.
I dun haf a life.
But walking around Orchard means having a life?
I rather not haf one then.
What should I do?

For this past week, i had been feeling miserable.
I know it sound insane, but i prefer to go work than staying at home.
It beats what i had been feeling all these while.
How am I suppose to put in words?
I will put it in a story.

Lynn is a girl juz like any normal girl.
Her life is very monotonous.
Nothing interesting had ever happened in her life.
During primary school days, she had a best friend.
But her best friend took advantage of her and they were in a heated argument which ended up them being enemies.
Her ex best friend talked behind her back and spun tales about her.
But Lynn met with 3 other girls who became her close friends.
These 3 friends unknowingly tried to impress her and each tried to be her best friend but her faith in best friend was gone.
In the end, Lynn did not choose any of thm to be her best friends.
She juz treat each of thm the same.
No special treatments.
After PSLE, they each went their separate ways but 2 of th friends turned out to be each other best friends.
Lynn tried to be jealous but in actual fact, she juz felt nothing.
She felt happy for them and relieved.
They still kept in contact up till now but Lynn never took the effort to take the iniative.

Then came Secondary school.
She went to Commonwealth Sec where she felt tuly happy.
Or so she thought.
She had a very close friend and she loved every moment spent in that year.
One day, she was diagnosed to have a spinal problem which had to be operated on.
That caused her to move school to a nearby one.
That move caused her to lose all the friends that she had made before.
Even though they promised to keep in touch but there was something missing.
The bond was no longer there.
The friends often talked about their school which she is clueless and when she tried to talked about her new school, no one paid any attention to her.

In her new school, she did make friends.
But she knew that these friends only befriended her cause she was smart.
She got brains.
Everyone respected her.
She liked a guy in her class.
But the guy unfortunately liked her close friend which she ended up persuading the friend to accept the guy.
She was the top student in the whole school.
Everyone knows her.
But everyone doesn't want to be her friend.
Everyone was scared of her.
She couldn't understand and so she put all her attention in studying and tried to be the best in her studies.
She became a model student for everyone.
At the same time, she also was heavily taken advantage of.
She knew about it. She felt hurt by it but she kept quiet.
She hoped that people would continue wanting to befriend her if she continue doing this.
She badly wanted to be accepted for who she is, not because of her brains.
Because of her medical problem, she was badly handicapped in sports.
She could not take part in any sports.
She could not take part being a camp leader.
The things that she loves to do was taken away from her juz like that.
She was never a girl who could stand still but she was forced to keep out from those things that she loved.
Her principal pressurized her during the O levels.
She pressurized herself.
She wanted to be the top student for the O levels.
She started to study very hard.
Never once had any life.
When the exams came, she grew scared.
She had jitters.
In the end, she fell down badly to the ground.

She went to a prestigious JC during the 3 months course.
There she met with people who accepted for who she was.
She loved every moment.
She cherished it.
She even had a crush in one of her classmates.
Unfortunately, good things always never stay.
Her results came and she was out from that school juz like tat.

She went to another JC where she had fun.
She met a few friends and grew close to them.
This time, she intended not to like any guys.
She wanted to go university to meet her friends in the previous JC.
She thought of a clever plan to keep out of guys.
She thought that liking a guy that cannot be reached would keep her out of falling for guys unneccessarily.
So she did.
She started to like a star named Kd.
A star whom she used to hate a lot.
She could never stand him but somehow she ended up liking him.
She thought life was going well for her.
But fate turned tables for her.

Her eagerness to go university failed.
She flopped her studies due to extreme phobia and pressure.
She saw each of her friend became successful in life.
She saw each of he friends leaving her for new ones.
She saw her life being taken away slowly.

She found a job and now she planned to go uni next year.
She wanted to gain back what she had lost.

One day, she realized that she had fallen deeply for the star.
She wanted to get out but she cant.
She knew it was stupid.
She knew it was impossible.
She knew that she need to break away from it.
But she juz cant let him go.
She let herself gets hurt time and time again for him.

One day, a couple of her friends called her and wanted to go visiting.
Lynn knew that she would be disappointed but she still agreed.
On the day itself, she waited.
She juz came back from work, not having enough rest and having stomach cramps.
But she still went to go.
They told her to meet at 2pm.
Then they told her again to meet at 2.30pm.
Finally, went she arrived, she received a message that they will be late and they will come around 3pm.
By that time, her stomach was really in pain.
She wanted to hold on for while more but she juz ould not take it.
She went home after messaging her friend that she was sick and coul not come.
The friends did not reply back.

Her mom had been asking her why she never had real friends.
She never replied coz she found it hard to explain.
She juz had to much pain to bear.
She juz could not find herself holding on to a friendship for long.
Y?
She juz have this wall around her heart that prevent ohers from getting close to her.
Once she sense someone is trying to get into her heart, she would distance herself away from that friend.
In the end, she ended up lonely.
With o one to understand her pain and sorrows.
With no one to share her happiness with.

Frm now onwards, i will continue updating my blog but i wun go into my blog till i change the skin.
Why?
Coz i juz dun feel like going to my blog anymore.
Juz too painful.

Let me ask a question.
What is Love and obssession?
Love and obssession are separated by only a thin margin.
The feeling i have now is pain.
Like my heart is broken into a million pieces.
So what am i experiencing?
Do i love him or am i obssess wif him?
That i do not know.
Sum of my frens told me that i am obssessed with him.
But there are others who says that i am juz too in love with him.
So who is correct and who is wrong?
No one knows right?

Whatever it is, i know that it will take me an extremely long time and effort to get over him.
I dun think i cant ever forget him, much less erase him from my heart.
What i know right now is too wish him all the best and happiness that he deserved.
I only want to see him healthy and always have a smile on his face.
I only want him to be happy and enjoy whatever thing that he is doing.
All i can do is to pray for his happiness and health for i know that he is a workaholic and always neglect his health.
I pray that he is prosperous in his life and only have good luck in his life.
I hope that he is happy with the girl that he chooses to be by his side.
May he have my sincere and unselfish blessings forever.

Arghhh!!!!
IDIOTIC!!!
That's the only word that can describe my driving test today.
My driving was fine.
My circuit courses were very good.
Not a single mistake in the circuit.
Then comes the road test.
It was fine except for a few minor mistakes.
During U-turn, i waited for the van to go past because after the van, the road was very clear.
But the tester said i was too slow and so i got points for that.
Idiotic coz ytd, when i tried to turn before a van, my instructor told me to wait for it to past thn turn.
Today, the same thing happen and i follow his advise but i gt points for it.
After that, my driving was fine.
Then came the most STUPIDEST and FRUSTRATING thing happen.
I was turning into a junction when suddenly there was a group of kids running and wanting to cross th road.
I did not stop coz i didn't notice them. They were very sudden.
Lucky the kids stop at the pavement and didn't cross the road.
Because of those kids, i gt scolded by the tester for not slowing down and i gt 14 points for it!
Idiotic!!!!!!!
Because of that stupid incident, i failed my test and cannot get my license and have to spent another $300-$400 for a retest in 3 months time!
IDIOTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so pissed off!

Yesterday, Lina, Shafiq and I went out for visiting at around 12pm.
The first house we went to was Lina's house.
There we ate fried noodles.
It was very delicious.
I thot of eating more but then, i know that my mom was cooking nasi briyani and Shafiq's mom was cooking Mee Soto and Kak Rohana cooked Beef steak.
We took pics and then we proceed to my house.
In my house, my younger bro's friends were here and so, they had to sit in the kitchen.
Sorry!
My house small....Hehe...
And not only that, i have to take my work bag along juz coz i got night shift that day.
Arghh!!!
Tak glamor langsung!
Haha...

Then after taking pics, we proceed to Shafiq's house.
We talked, eat and tease the cat.
The cat is so so cute!
Juz like a carpet.
Haha....

After that, we went to Kak Rohana's house.
Her house is very spacious and a very nice location.
Very near to shops and bus-stop.
So easy to go to work.
Haha...

After that, i rush to work, wearing my baju kebaya and my high heels.
So idiotic looking!
I ran to the bus and saw Taj in the bus.
We chatted and go work...
As soon as i reached apron, i changed into my slippers, t-shirt and track pants.
haha....
Cant take wearing high heels any longer...

I was so full that i forced myself to eat the food that i brought from home at 2 am in the morning.
Don't want it to go to waste.
Well, its a great and enjoyable day that day!

Yesterday, i receive news that Kunda was hospitalised.
He was going to undergo an operation to remove some blood clots near hi heart.
He was breathless that day and was soon admitted to the hospital.

When i heard the news, my blood really ran cold.
This was the first time i actually felt my blood draining from my blood due to bad news.
My heart was pumping so hard.
Tears filled my eyes but i refused to let them go out.
I was really filled with worry.

That day i had to go to work.
I was working night shift.
i was so worried that my mind was not working properly.
On the bus, i was holding the white Energy band with both my hands
Somehow i fell asleep.
While sleeping, i felt something warm touching my hand.
I woke up and was surprised to see Kunda smiling at me.
I blink my eyes and as soon as i opened my eyes, he disappeared.
It was weird.
During that time, my mp3 was playing 'Yong Yuan Bu Shuo Zai Jian'.
I remembered him wearing a white sleeveless shirt.
I dunnoe wad its means but according to Siti, its suppose to b a good omen.
I hope so.
I really hope so...

Today is the most probably the worst day of my life.
Why?
Today is hari Raya.
I am suppose to be excited abt it but No!
I am excited abt Energy arrival instead.

I went to work wearing my baju kebaya.
Then i ask permission frm my supervisor to let me go out for awhile and c energy!
hehe....
I went there and waited for thm rite outside their airplane gate.
Haha....
Guess wad?
I was so excited that i forgot to brg my money!
I was thinking of buying Burger King to eat but al fly away already.
Idiotic!!!

I looked up and saw quite a few fans upstairs and i wonder how they got there.
They were anxiously waiting for EG but EG managed to avoid them..
Haha....
How?
I saw them bing escorted and led into a lift.
I could see Shuwei and Ah Di clearly.
Ah Di was wearing white jacket while Shuwei wore a white shirt and had blue stripes on the sleeves.
Shuwei was grinning happily.
Ah Di was putting on his usual solemn look.
I managed to see Kunda.
He was so cute!
He wore black jacket, black jeans, black cap and black sunglasses and a white shirt.
Everything he wore is black. I wonder why....
While they were being escorted to the lift, i sawKunda putting his passport over his lips.
Haha...
So cute! Like a small boy waiting for the teacher to tell him what to do.
When they went down the lift, i also went down using the escalator.
I thought i want to see them in the arrival hall from afar.
BUT.......
i did not realize that by the time i reached the ground floor and walking thru the immigration counter, they were walking rite beind me.
Idiotic!!!
I didnt realize that until i felt like someone staring my back.
I passed the counter and went to look behind.
That was then that i realized that EG was behind me all along.
They were directed to some seats by the side instead of following me.
Haha...
I am such an idiotic fool!
I really feeli like kicking myself.
Arghh!!!
Kunda is really cute!

Name: 山下　リンダ
DOB: 20 January .

Hobby: Surfing net, reading, listening to music

Fav Boys:Aiba Masaki, Akanishi Jin, Yamashita Tomohisa(Guys),

Fav Food & Drink:Chocolate & Cha Soba(food), Green tea (drink)

Fav Doramas: Nobuta Wo Produce, Gokusen 1 & 2, Dragon Zakura

Fav Songs: Hesitate, It Can't Be, Murasaki by Jin Akanishi, ButterflyーKattun,Himawari,Snow Express, Weeek Daite Senorita, Love Song, Colourful- Yamapi, Right Back to You, Wish, Harukaze Sneakers, Subarashi Sekai-Arashi, Itsuka No Summer- Aiba Masaki