What i am about to write may be sensitive to others.
They may feel hurt or angry towards what i write in awhile but frankly speaking, I am just letting my feelings known.
I never want to hurt people's feelings.
So, i hope tat anyone who read this and might be hurt by it, please dont proceed further.
Haha....
Recently, on Christmas eve, I went out with a couple of my friends to kbox.
A fren of mine brought a guy fren along.
I was perfectly fine with it and doesn't feel awkward at all.
I was having a fun time singing before she and her fren came.
After they came, i felt miserable.
I agree that he is a good singer.
I also agree that he's voice is nice.
But it was not his concert or anything.
I also want to sing but i never had my share.
I only had a few songs which were always pushed back and throughout the whole time, i sat there straing at the screen.
I know that i should voice out and ask for my turn but i didnt.
Y?
Beacuse i don't want to hurt their feelings. Any way, when i sing, they are off doing their own things.
It's not that im asking for an audience for what but it's hurtful to see that u r singing alone when in fact we should be enjoying together.
I know that im a horrible singer but all i ask for is juz some respect.
I know that i cant read chinese or speak it as fluently as some people.
But i do understand them to a certain extend.
Please do not treat me like im a stupid baka.
This incident is not the first time that happen. Its happen everytime i went for kbox.
I really wonder y i even agree to go in the 1st place when i know that the same thing will happen each and everytime.
Next is my colleagues.
I brought thm cheesecakes but they never eat it.
Fine, it's ok.
But even if u dun want to eat it, plz throw it away and not leave it to rot.
I felt so hurt when i saw my cheesecake was untouch and thrown away juz like that.
Not only tat, they changed alot.
I dunnoe why but i felt like that wanted to avoid me.
They dun want to talk to me.
It's like they cant stand to be in the same place as me.
Ytd, i had a bad time.
I called up the UPS to check about their flight.
But the person is so rude.
He actually snapped at me when i juz repeated what he said.
I repeated it because i wanted to get info right.
He's not the only one who had been working all night long.
Me too.
I never had a break from the time i came to work.
Im juz so tired.
My heart is very heavy.
With my problems that i had with my parents and the problems i had with myself are more than enough to make me insane.
I need someone, anyone to hear me out.
But i know that its hard to find that person.
Till i find that person, i guess i have to bear everything alone.
