My 21st birthday....
I thot it will be memorable and fun.
When the clock struk 12, my colleagues surprised me with a birthday cake.
They sang me a birthday song and teased me.
It was very touching and i will never forget it ever.
That night i and a few of my new colleagues had to performed.
Sha, Lina, Shafiq and I.
Dressed in chinese clothes with huge flowers on our head.
Haha...
It was fun and exciting.
I like the dressing up and performing.
After the performance, Shafiq was pulled and made to dance with ACMS former chief.
Th 3 of us were at the back, fidgeting like some call girls.
It was so embarrassing!
The whole party sang me a birthday saong and cut and blew candle.
Hehe....
I was very nervous.
The night before Ching Hwa called me to discuss about the outing.
I was not that happy with what they had in store for me.
Either the beach or eat at Seoul Garden.
That was mistake no.1. Strike 1.
I hated the beach and hated eating.
I dun dare tell them that.
Why?
Because i dun wan to hurt their feelings.
Ching Hwa told me that she could not join us for long coz she wanted to meet her boyfriend.
That was mistake no.2. Strike 2.
I was upset but i didnt tell her.
I did not want to tell for fear of not being an understanding friend.
The night of my birthday, after the performance, I had a message.
A message from Siti.
Telling me that she cant make it for the outing.
That was mistake no.3. The final and last strike. Strike 3.
I gathered all my courage not to cry in that function.
I did what i thought was best way out.
I message them, telling them that i am not going out anymore.
That night, i cried.
The next day which was supposed to go out, i juz lay in bed, wondering what the world was happening.
All i wanted was my closest friends to sacrificed juz one day.
One day for me.
One day to accompany me.
One day. Juz one day.
I wun ask for more.
Is that so difficult?
Is it so hard?
They are the closest friends i had.
I had no other close friends.
That day, i cried.
I cried myself to sleep.
Ever since that day, ever since my birthday, nothing went right.
I cried to sleep everynight.
How can anyone understand how i felt?
Tell me, how can i ever trust anyone after this?
How can i trust a person saying that they will be there for me no matter what.
How can i trust a person who called themselves my friends?
If you have an answer, call me.
