Hmm....
So long never post.
Haha...
Busy?
Nah, I'm not busy. What can i be busy with?
No friends to talk to, only have work.

Anyway, i went to Disney on ice on the 17/3.
It was fun!
Hmm...
I will post the story up on day when i feel like it.

Now, I juz want to say tat I'm going to upload a video abt Aiba in South Africa.
It's a very cute video and very interesting to watch.
It's a muz watch!!!

Honestly, i dun really care whether my blog is read by people or not.
Whether my blog is attractive or not.
The important thing is that my blog is attractive to me.
And it is a place where i can pour my frustrations out.

I am a person who dun like to express my feelings.
Once i express my feelings verbally, it is often not pleasant coz i have a pretty sharp tongue.

Nowadays, i am completely alone except when i am at work.
At home, i immersed myself with watching videos of my favourite boybands.
No one ever message me or talk to me.
I am tired of being the one who always initiate things.
I'm tired of the one who started the conversation first.
Why must be me?

My life is not going well lately.
Somehow, the people whom i once called friends are now like total strangers to me.
Somehow, when i tried to help people, they turned against me.
Where did i ever go wrong?

I juz want a friend.
A friend whom i can share my thoughts with.
A friend who say that they are there and they really meant it.
A friend who doesn't hurt my feelings so bad.

Sometimes, i am bursting with news.
Wanted to share a piece of news, but when i look around, everyone has their own set of friends.
They will tell me that they are busy with their work or studies or friends or family.
Who am i going to tell these happy or exciting news to?
When i call them up, they will be talking to someone else and seemed to be distracted by other things.
Well, they may rebutt saying that when they try to talk to me, i wll reply them coldly.
Yes, i admit that.
But why do i react like that?
It's because i am very hurt.
It's because i don't feel important anymore to them.
It's because i feel like they suddenly remember me like some piece of trash.

I hate it when i know what the other person is thinking of.
I dunnoe how i know, i juz know it.
I could feel what the other person is feeling.
But no one ever try to know what i am thinking of.

Now, i realize something.
There's a saying that no man is an island.
Yup, that's true.
I agree.
But it only implies that you need people just to survive.
You don't need friends.
You can live your life on your own without 'friends'.
You only need yourself and your family.
Friends are not important at all.

Recently, i began to like Arashi again.
Among the Arashi members, im attracted to Jun and Aiba.
But i like Aiba more.
As i see more and more of Aiba, i began to see the similarities between Aiba and Kunda.

1st- they are both of the same age.
2nd- They are both in boybands (obviously!)
3rd-They are both VERY lame
4th- Their english is very weak!
5th-they both have long hair
6th-They are both cute! (hehe...)
7th- They both like to smile
8th- They look almost similar!
9th-Both had chest infection which require them to go operation that leaves a scar on their chest. .
10th-Both are prone to sickness or accidents.

Aiba-kun! Isn't he cute?


Xie Kunda...I cant find the photo where Kunda wore a similar outfit like Aiba...Haizz...

Aren't they similar?
Hehe...
But then, as i watched Aiba, i began to prefer him more.
He's more hyper than Kunda and he can dance better. Hehe...
The way he told his friends his feelings really make me want to cry. It was so touching!
Hehe....

I really loved this song.
It's full of meaning.
Well, another plus point is that Jun is pretty cute, in a boyish type of way.
Actually, at first glance, he doesn't look tat cute.
He is the sort whereby he grows on you.
Hahaha....
Not to mention, he's a great actor!!

Here is the lyrics to the song and the MV can be found on the 'Child' page.
Enjoy!

La Familia- Matsumoto Jun

Subete ira Hawaii de hajimari, Arashi, Arahi for a dream
It all began in Hawaii, Arashi, Arahi for a dream

Hado na manichi ga tsuruku naka de minna to kawara shita akushu
It's so hard everyday but I keep on going inside shaking hands and associating with everyone

Chikara ga nakuta jibun ga nakute fuan bakari dakaeteta
I'm not strong, I'm not myself, I'm always so uneasy, enduring

Sore Demo mienai michi wo mita hitasura hashitte ita
But even tho I can't see the way, I see the need to keep running

Chorus
*Found a reason to be strong
You are the one always in my heart, my friend
Everytime you call my name, I will be there
No matter how far, we are friends *

Jibun wo hato wa wakatteru doko ni iru kamo wakatteru
I understand about myself. Where am I? I understand that too

Hito wa shinjirara nai toki wa manori ga mietai naitoki
At that time I didn't trust other people. At that time I didn't see my surroundings

Jikan ga kakaru koto mo aru wakatte ita mo dekinai koto
I took my time and understand the things i couldn't do

Jibun no ashi de fumi dashi ima izaa kabe wakoeru
My legs carry me on, right here now, I jump over the wall

Go nen gou tatsutte hitori ja nai n dato
5 years have passed, I'm not alone

Hibi kanji nagara aruite iru tamoni kurushini tomoni warai
The everyday as we walk on, together in hardships, together in laughter

Manichi tanoshimi nagara
During the everyday fun

Mawari ni kanasha shi nagara jibun no michi wa jibunde arabu
While i'm grateful for my surroundings, my way is my choice

Ore no ashi wa ji ni tsuiteiru
My legs are steady
(Ore no ashi wa ji ni tsuiteiru
My legs are steady)

Chorus *

Go nen gou wa daou natteru? Manichi wa tanoshi n deru?
What have I become after 5 years? Am I having fun everyday?

Ima yori mo jibun mo hito mo shinjirareru you ni natteru
I'm more myself now, another person, as if I've become more trusting

Koko de matteru waratteru. Go nen gaou na mirai ga matteru
Here I am waiting, laughing after 5 years, I'm waiting for the lifetime

Dekireba subete todoketai tegami ni kaita negai
To see if it was possible I sen a letter in which I wrote my wish

Koko kara saku n de iku michi minna ni todoka nagai michi
From here, let's progress along the road with everyone going forward on the long road

Hitori de hoshiru toppu ranna ga yoka ni naru n de hashiru michi
Alone I run, I'm a top runner when running besides others in line

( **Sona toki ga soba ni iru darou kitto ga min de iru darou
At time who is by my side? Without a doubt, it's 5 people together **

Mawari wa mireba ima datte anata ga iru minna ga iru
Because what I see in my surrounding now is you, is everyone)

Chorus
Repeat ( ) and then **

Mawari wa mireba anata ga iru sou negai amoi wo koko ni tsuzuru
In my surroundings, I see you and so the wish I remember is bound to me here

I finally passed my driving test!!
Guess wad?
I gt 8 pts only!!!
That's great, isn't it?
Hehe....
I am really so happy about finally getting my license.

During the test, I was very nervous as usual.
I did my circuit pretty well except for the vertical parking.
I parked the car slanted which coz me 2 pts!!
But its ok.
Then we got on the road.
Halfway thru the route, the instructer cut the route short.
I was very nervous already.
I thot i was doomed for.
When we sat down, the instructor asked me is it so difficult to pass the test since it has been 3 times since i tried.
I was thinking, uh oh...
Fortunately, i saw the tester wrote 8 pts and it dawned to me that i passed!!!!
Hahaha....

Name: 山下　リンダ
DOB: 20 January .

Hobby: Surfing net, reading, listening to music

Fav Boys:Aiba Masaki, Akanishi Jin, Yamashita Tomohisa(Guys),

Fav Food & Drink:Chocolate & Cha Soba(food), Green tea (drink)

Fav Doramas: Nobuta Wo Produce, Gokusen 1 & 2, Dragon Zakura

Fav Songs: Hesitate, It Can't Be, Murasaki by Jin Akanishi, ButterflyーKattun,Himawari,Snow Express, Weeek Daite Senorita, Love Song, Colourful- Yamapi, Right Back to You, Wish, Harukaze Sneakers, Subarashi Sekai-Arashi, Itsuka No Summer- Aiba Masaki