Honestly, i dun really care whether my blog is read by people or not.
Whether my blog is attractive or not.
The important thing is that my blog is attractive to me.
And it is a place where i can pour my frustrations out.
I am a person who dun like to express my feelings.
Once i express my feelings verbally, it is often not pleasant coz i have a pretty sharp tongue.
Nowadays, i am completely alone except when i am at work.
At home, i immersed myself with watching videos of my favourite boybands.
No one ever message me or talk to me.
I am tired of being the one who always initiate things.
I'm tired of the one who started the conversation first.
Why must be me?
My life is not going well lately.
Somehow, the people whom i once called friends are now like total strangers to me.
Somehow, when i tried to help people, they turned against me.
Where did i ever go wrong?
I juz want a friend.
A friend whom i can share my thoughts with.
A friend who say that they are there and they really meant it.
A friend who doesn't hurt my feelings so bad.
Sometimes, i am bursting with news.
Wanted to share a piece of news, but when i look around, everyone has their own set of friends.
They will tell me that they are busy with their work or studies or friends or family.
Who am i going to tell these happy or exciting news to?
When i call them up, they will be talking to someone else and seemed to be distracted by other things.
Well, they may rebutt saying that when they try to talk to me, i wll reply them coldly.
Yes, i admit that.
But why do i react like that?
It's because i am very hurt.
It's because i don't feel important anymore to them.
It's because i feel like they suddenly remember me like some piece of trash.
I hate it when i know what the other person is thinking of.
I dunnoe how i know, i juz know it.
I could feel what the other person is feeling.
But no one ever try to know what i am thinking of.
Now, i realize something.
There's a saying that no man is an island.
Yup, that's true.
I agree.
But it only implies that you need people just to survive.
You don't need friends.
You can live your life on your own without 'friends'.
You only need yourself and your family.
Friends are not important at all.
