Hehe...
Juz like the tittle, there is something more than juz words.
What is in my heart and how i felt is written right here in my blog but it cant really paint the real picture of how i felt.
I know that i'm not perfect.
I have my own flaws.
But do i really have to get this type of punishment?
Am i really a truly bad person that they totally have to ignore and refused to say out my name?
Sometimes it juz hurts to see how my friendships juz went sour and disappear juz like that.
I thought we are going to continue but i guess the scar will never heal.
Too bad..

Haha...
Forget abt them.
Anyway, i can no longer view youtube so i'm going to upload D no Arashi clips every 2 days juz for my own view...
Hehe...

I juz finished reading Lime mag for this month which features an article abt Niu Nai.
Reading anything abt Energy juz hurts me so much.
I was flipping thru the channels and saw Li Wei.
Reminds me so much of Kunda.
The guy whom i used to cry and had my heart broken so many times that i lost count.
Haha...
Now, I dun even think of him anymore.
Why?
I dun even want to know abt him anymore esp after my fallout with my friends.
I thought they could change my views abt friends.
I guess not.
Apparently, they are still happy without me.
Haha...
What am I suppose to expect?
Linda, u are such a jerk sometimes!
Haha...
I dunnoe if they are still reading my blog or not.
But i have to admit, I really miz them.
I wanted so much to talk to them but i guess they are better off without me.
Energy esp Kunda juz brings me memories of the past, where i spent gd times with them..
Now, juz thinking of Energy juz hurts.
Plain hurt.

I'm back to Arashi.
My former idols before Energy.
I guess Arashi is like there for me.
They never broke up.
They are still together.
Their songs encouraged me.
It's really like as if, they wanted to console me.
Esp Aiba.
He's so cute and funny which makes me laugh whenever i'm down.
Arashi....
They are my Stormy Boys after all....

MASAKI AIBA is your STORMY dream boy! If you're everything that's sugar and spice and everything nice, this adoringly *pinchable* cutie can provide you with everything so darn sweet that you may even be required to have a dose of insulin before you sink in to the special phase that we know as TRUE LOVE! Think of yourself as a cute little teddy bear and you will feel all the warmth and gentleness this boy can give you. Now now, don't spoil him too much with all of that sweet stuff... that is his *major* weakness... ^.^

Congrats! Your true lover is Aiba Masaki! You are a type of girl that is very easy to talk to. You are very memorable. Once Aiba talks to you, and REALLY get to communicate with you, he'll for sure fall in love with you! You are very mature, and like to discuss all your feelings out. Honesty and being clear in every situation is best.

You're JUN (alias MatsuJun) MATSUMOTO!! Your bright and sunny smile makes the sun shine brighter everyday! You laugh a lot, you play practical jokes on people, and you like to compete with the group's heartbreaker to see who gets to cap on the people best! Don't try to make yourself look cool now because you're cool the way you are, man!

Haha...
From the title, the concert is from 3 years ago.
Old news huh?

Well, in short, i bought the vcd and it cost me!!!
But it's worth every single cent.
It's very beautiful.
Sugoi!!
Saiko!!
Hehe...
But there are many cuts in the vcd.
Dun have all the Omiya Sk segments.. Too bad...
Aiba chan is forever kawaii and hyper.
Oh-chan is forever weird.
But he rocks!!! The way he dance, wow!
Matsujun, he can really shake butt!
Nino, he's a very emotional guy. What can I say?
Sho-kun? He's another weirdo...
Haha...

The clothes they wear ar juz so hilarious!
Colourful!
Aiba-chan's clothes are juz so ATROCIOUS!!!
Like the production is so poor.
His clothes are all so small and tattered!
Well, he does have muscles and nice to look at but he's so thin!
Haha....
I wish that i could challenged a race with him..

Anyway, I had a dream juz now.
An EXTREMELY weird dream.
I really thought it was real. Arghh!!!

I was in Japan, attending their auto session.
I approached Aiba. Then he muttered something to me with his expressionless, annoyed face.
I juz smiled and went off. The rest were laughing at us.
Then, i found myself sitting at the concert.
Beside me was Arashi themselves!
Oh-can was beside me, grinning, laughing.
I was surprised to see him and quickly asked him.
"Satoshi, what on earth did Aiba tell me? Quick! My japanese is very bad," i asked him.
He laughed and replied, "Ohh... Aiba said that you are a nuisance."
I widened my eyes in surprised.

It was day coz i remember that I am in the park.
It was freezing cold coz i was wearing thick coats.
I think my cousin was there too.She was holding a camera.
Arashi was there.
My cousin was shouting at Arashi, asking them whether they can take pics with us.
Automatically, I stood beside Nino, far away from Aiba.
Aiba was also trying not to talk to me.
After that, I walked away from them.
I saw a very eerie house and was staring at it.
Somehow, someone was standing beside me.
I looked over and saw Ohno beside me.
He grinned and pulled me back.
My cousin saw me and quickly shouted at Aiba to take a picture with me.
I juz stood still.
He approached me.
Then, he hugged me tightly.
I pushed him away but he pulled me closer.
I leaned against his chest and my cousin took the pic.

I think that there's more but i cant remember anymore.
Hehe...It's such a weird dream and i was really shocked when i woke up.
I honestly thought it was real coz i could remember feeling his woollen jacket, his smell vividly.
Darn, i wish it will come true!!!

I juz did a test at tickle.com abt what's my type of guy and this is the result....

You must be havin' a laugh! You go for the clown type!

Laughter is the way to your heart. A man with a fab sense of humour is definitely the one for you!
You want a Clown, someone who can laugh at himself and make you laugh, too.
There's nothing more tedious than a man who takes himself too seriously.
You know that if a chap is silly, he's generally self-confident and secure.
Your man is a people magnet and everyone's favourite friend.
There's never a dull moment with your clown nearby.
You crave excitement and a bit of a laugh, and your clown enhances those things in your life.
You probably think life is too short to spend it without a smile.
Your witty lad will ensure that that doesn't happen - his light hearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.

Hmmm...So wad do u think?
I think it's true.
I luv guys who can make me laugh or smile.
Guys who are witty and who are not afraid to be silly.
Well, it reminds me of Aiba-chan.
He's cute, adorable and he always makes himself look like a dork in A no Arashi.
Not only that, he loves animals!
Hehe....

Name: 山下　リンダ
DOB: 20 January .

Hobby: Surfing net, reading, listening to music

Fav Boys:Aiba Masaki, Akanishi Jin, Yamashita Tomohisa(Guys),

Fav Food & Drink:Chocolate & Cha Soba(food), Green tea (drink)

Fav Doramas: Nobuta Wo Produce, Gokusen 1 & 2, Dragon Zakura

Fav Songs: Hesitate, It Can't Be, Murasaki by Jin Akanishi, ButterflyーKattun,Himawari,Snow Express, Weeek Daite Senorita, Love Song, Colourful- Yamapi, Right Back to You, Wish, Harukaze Sneakers, Subarashi Sekai-Arashi, Itsuka No Summer- Aiba Masaki