♥Sunday, June 11, 2006
I'm such a baka..
Why?
I finally realized that Aiba was his family name and Masaki is is given name!
Haha....
I'm so baka, right?
Anyway,
Another reason i'm baka is that I'm envious.
Envious that my friends (should I still call them friends?) had a birthday party.
Chotto Matte!
Why should they inform me in the first place anyway?
Well, I think, I felt or maybe I hope that we still could be friends again.
Hmm... I thought I've already let go of the past but in fact, I'm still clinging onto them tightly.
At work yesterday, Sha and Shaiq came late at 6.20pm.
I wasn't angry.
In fact I'm used to it.
Shafiq was grinning stupidly at me.
So i asked him, "What are you smiling about?"
Arghh!!!! It was supposed to be a joke!
But it sounded as if I'm shouting at him..
A trait that i have similar with Aiba...
No wonder people often misunderstand me.
Guess what?
I wanted to find some facts about Yamapi.
So I went to search the internet.
I found more information about him that I bargain for..
Haha...
So I'm off to add it to my scrapbook!
Well, after I've finished writing Arashi-Hero's lyrics and translation in my scrapbook.
Hehe...
♥Saturday, June 03, 2006
Yesterday, i had a talk with Lina.
I did this because i can't stand any longer with her playing around with me.
I need to straighten out with her.
I ask her why is she trying to avoid me.
She answered that she was trying to give me some time to cool off.
I told her before that i was note angry at her. I never am angry with her.
Actually, i find it hard to be angry with people for so long.
I feel more hurt than angry.
I told her that i was not shouting at her that day.
Even my shift said i wasn't.
My voice is high pitch, kind of like Aiba's.
I was worried about her since she used to complain that she was always sick on her way to work.
She replied saying that she had informed her DS about it.
But her own DS was late and didn't tell us anything when he came.
No one informed us about anything.
Then i told her about how i felt.
I told her how can she throw tamtrums at me and then when she felt like it,. she asked me for help.
How can she do that to me?
I told her to ask help from Sha and Shafiq and what was their response.
She replied, she did.
I told her that ok, putting the shouting thing aside, i couldn't see the link between the shouting and the complained about the ETD and ETA.
She answerd saying that Kak mazni was the one who asked her to bring her up to me long before but she refused to tell me but now, she wanted to tell me off, she brought it up.
I was kind of speechless to hear that.
I told her that i don't want this idiotic thing to continue further.
Let bygones be bygones and even tho we are trying to put it behind us, i told her that we will never be the same like before.
I wondered why my friendships is never like Arashi's.
Even tho how much i try to keep a friendship together, it just slips right of my hand like that.
My good intentions were mistaken.
It's hard...
♥Thursday, June 01, 2006
So long i have never post!
haha...
Nothing is going on with my life.
Same old, same old.
My colleague, Lina, still avoided me for no reason.
And i still am my genki self.
Rite now, I'm watching Kurosagi, acted by Yamapi!
One of my favourite idols besides Arashi.
Hmm... I've updated my fanfic on Aiba and currently writing another about Jun.
My life is very boring.
I don't know what to do with it.
I'm trying to find some part-time diplomas to fill up the time.
i am still searching tho.
My ultimate aim is to get a degree by next year.
Don't worry, Linda!
You can do it!
Gambatte!
Haha....
