Yesterday, i had a talk with Lina.
I did this because i can't stand any longer with her playing around with me.
I need to straighten out with her.
I ask her why is she trying to avoid me.
She answered that she was trying to give me some time to cool off.
I told her before that i was note angry at her. I never am angry with her.
Actually, i find it hard to be angry with people for so long.
I feel more hurt than angry.
I told her that i was not shouting at her that day.
Even my shift said i wasn't.
My voice is high pitch, kind of like Aiba's.
I was worried about her since she used to complain that she was always sick on her way to work.
She replied saying that she had informed her DS about it.
But her own DS was late and didn't tell us anything when he came.
No one informed us about anything.
Then i told her about how i felt.
I told her how can she throw tamtrums at me and then when she felt like it,. she asked me for help.
How can she do that to me?
I told her to ask help from Sha and Shafiq and what was their response.
She replied, she did.
I told her that ok, putting the shouting thing aside, i couldn't see the link between the shouting and the complained about the ETD and ETA.
She answerd saying that Kak mazni was the one who asked her to bring her up to me long before but she refused to tell me but now, she wanted to tell me off, she brought it up.
I was kind of speechless to hear that.
I told her that i don't want this idiotic thing to continue further.
Let bygones be bygones and even tho we are trying to put it behind us, i told her that we will never be the same like before.
I wondered why my friendships is never like Arashi's.
Even tho how much i try to keep a friendship together, it just slips right of my hand like that.
My good intentions were mistaken.
It's hard...
