Last Monday, Maznee changed duty with me.
I work her night and she work my day.
Well, despite what I know will happen, I still agreed to change out of goodwill.
Last monday nite was a total nightmare.
First, the shift actually turn on Malay and Hindi songs out loud!
I really feel so sick already and hearing those songs made me sicker.
I was not alert enough.
I didn't check the aircraft type clearly and thus an incident happened.
Thai airways aircraft type was A330 but on the strip was written A306.
I didn't check properly and so the aircraft entered a small bay.
It entered fine but when they wanted to pushback, they had problems.
It was then, when i realized my mistake.
Luckily, nothing happened to the aircraft.
It pushback safely without a scratch.
But i felt very bad.
I am one of the most careful and serious person when doing my job.
How could I overlook this, i have no idea.
Not only that, Alex was making me feel much worse by saying idiotic things.
I hated what he said.
It is not entirely my fault.
The marshallers knew that the bay was small for it but they never alert us.
The pilot just head one when into the bay.
This is pure idiotic, don't you think?
Today, Maznee is supposed to do my day shift but guess what?
Well,even idiots could have guess correctly.
She had one day child MC.
I had expected that she would do this.
Tomorrow when she hand over to me, she will go all high pitch and say, "Linda, yesterday, my child is sick. There's no one to take care...blah, blah, blah."
Trust me, she will do that.
Haha....
I need to stay calm.
Lately, I've been feeling very sensitive.
Hmm...Not lately.
Ever since I got out of school, I began to feel sensitive.
I have no idea why.
I bought Attention Please Dvd starring Aya Ueto and Nishikido Ryo.
I dislike Ryo for quite sometime.
Reason for disliking him?
I have no idea.
Whenever I see his face, I feel like slapping him.
Hahaha...
I'm so dead if Ryo fans or Ryo himself ever read this.
BUT!!!!!
Don't kill me yet. Read the next few sentences please before deciding my punishment.
I feel that Ryo is a pretty good actor.
Honestly, I do feel some kind of attraction for him but I WILL NEVER ACKNOWLEDGE THIS FEELING!!
Even if Ryo himself appear in front of me and confess he likes me,(this will never happen), don't worry, I will never accept.
Dakara, Ryo-chan, please get out of my mind!
Onegai ichimasu!
Hisashiburi desu ne!
Haha...
Nani o kakitai desu ka?
Hmm...
Watashi no kimochi?
Kanashii desu.
Doushite kanashii?
Wakaranai...
Maybe i miss my friends a lot.
I miss those days.
I miss my secondary school friends(Ainshah, Fara, Illiani, etc), my JC friends (Fathiah, Yani, Shivani, Polly,etc) and also friends whom I made through the net (Xinyi, Siti, Ching Hwa, etc).
Haha..
Why do I suddenly have the urge of missing them?
Wakarimasen...
This morning, during night shift, I asked Firah why was she not aware of the German Cargo not linked to the FIDS..
She asked me irritatingly, "Why do you need to shout?"
Thsi question reminded me of Lina's incident.
She too asked me the exact same question.
Demo, I did not shout at all.
My voice was just shrill.
It's either people hear me or not.
What can I do about it?
I was born like that.
Anyway, saki, hanasanakatta desu.
Atashi wa nihonggo benkyou shitan desu.
I kept quiet till Lee woke up and took over me.
Tell me, who am I suppose to confide my troubles to when no one even listen to me?
I guess the reason my friends left me one by one...
Is because of who I am...
They can't acept who i am..
