A few minutes ago, Kak Rohana chatted with me in MSN.
After the greetings, she asked me whether i am fine.
I replied, that I'm fine.
She asked whether is there anything wrong.
So I replied, Nothing.
I asked her, What do you think?
She replied, she was wondering what was wrong since I had not been coming up to apron lately.
I replied, I am lazy. There is no point for me going up in apron since I will not talk much even tho I will be there. Even if I talk, it will be wrong and even if i don't talk also it will be wrong. So it's better for me that I stay in baggage studying or finishing up my book.
She replied, Whatever you say
I replied, yea.
Then, she said, I'll leave you to your own company, Good night.
Straight away, she went offline without letting me say any further.
Please tell me.
Did i answer wrongly?
Should I answer her question in a different manner?
I really don't know.
All i know is that I answered her questions without thinking much and there are too much hurt in me that I didn't really think properly what I should answer.
Yes, I know it's my fault for answering like that but it's the truth.
Even if I am up in apron, I will either be made fun of, ignored, being made use of or just being a bystander, looking into people who are cracking jokes among themselves.
I wanted to tell her what had been bothering me but there was not any chance to do it.
I guess I blew off my chance already.
Now, I shall just see what happens next.
