I just watched the bonus dvd on Youtube.
The feeling after watching the dvd...
How do I describe it?
I felt that NewS are different.
The person who changed the most is Tegoshi.
Tegoshi used to be quiet, innocent, soft-spoken but now, he's really grown up.
He grown to be more confident of himself.
He even called Yamapi, 'Pi'!
Haha...
Never really expect that...
Tegoshi even dyed his hair brown!
Cool huh?
He even surprises his band members.
The next person who changed the most is Yamapi.
Yamapi used to be the guy who is even-tempered, skinny, the boy-boy type.
But now, he changed so much in his physique.
More muscular.
He is still the even-tempered guy but he is not as silly as before.
He does not do cute things anymore.
He's more mature in the sense.
Haha...
But I could still see that he's trying to take charge of everything and does his work seriously.
Too serious in fact.
Koyama, Shige, Ryo, Massu...
They did change but not as major as these two.
Somehow, all in all, NewS matures overtime..
Haha...
The feeling that I get when I watch Yamapi is absolutely weird.
Very weird....
Haha....
I am very envious when I watched them interact with each other.
Just like what Yamapi said, they are 'lucky boys'.
When I compared my life with theirs, they are much more luckier than me.
Even tho they do not have enough rest and stuff, they have each other.
They have each other and they trust each other.
For me, I don't think I have those type of friends.
Well, I do have a couple whom I can call when I am feeling upset.
I did call them a couple of times when I'm upset.
But still, somehow, I feel different.
My mom told me of my attitude.
Well, in short, she said I am cocky, arrogant and self-centered.
Well, I may LOOK that way but I know myself.
I am NOT like that.
People misunderstands me more than I can count.
Haha...
At work, one of my colleagues told me that I had offended someone whom I should not offend.
Now, my name is tarnished.
If I say that I am not upset about it, I am lying big time!
I do feel upset and angry but I can't do much about it.
Even the person who caused me to offend him also did not realize it and does not show much appreciation for it.
I know i am a fool.
I huge fool.
I will continue being a fool until I don't know when.
I am happy with my job but not with my colleagues.
I am upset, angry, disappointed, confused but no one is there to help me with it.
What do I do?
I escape.
I escape to the world of Johnny's Entertainment.
I escape into Japan.
I fall for Yamapi.
They made me happy but I know it's short -lived unless Yamapi really do return my love back.
Haha...
Well, I guess I should just continue dreaming...
