Konnichiwa!
It's been a long time since I last update, huh?
Haha...
As if anyone reads my boring lifestory and ramblings of my idols.
Haha....
This is a motivational article by Yamapi....
Please do read it and think it over..
heme: Style
This morning, I woke up and I ate corn flakes. I
immediately decided the clothes I'm going to wear
today. I wore jeans and put on a undershirt and jacket
and open the front door after putting on my boots. The
time it takes to get here after I wake up is 30
minutes. Usually, it's like this. Sometimes, I can
immediately choose the clothes I'm going to wear that
day, and sometimes I can't. When there are times when
I think "I want to wear this Jacket, but it doesn't
match with the jeans that I already have on," I would
change one of the item. When I go to sleep, bottom is
jersey (sweats) and top is naked. The one thing that I
always do before going to sleep is brush my teeth.
These days, I go in bath at night. Because I leave in
the morning right after I wake up.
These days, I choose my clothes depending on the the
look of the sillhouette. For pants, I like the narrow
kind better. I don't wear the baggy ones that much.
Since my pants are narrow, I choose my jackets
according to that. The other day, I found clothes that
I wanted but it was pretty expensive so I left the
store once. After that, I went into another store and
they had the exact same thing. I thought "This is
fate!" and bought it immediately. In college I can
wear regular clothes, but High School is a uniform,
right? The rule was that we weren't allowed to take
off even one button, but I had about 2 buttons off.
And then, the moment the teacher comes, I quickly
button up. As for pants, I wore it regularly around
the hips and when the teacher caught me, I would make
excuses by saying "My legs are very short." (laugh)
That's why, while not making it disrespectful, I think
it's good to wear uniforms with individuality. Both
boys and girls.
When I go out to eat with my guy friends, I'll treat
if I have the money, and my friend will treat if he
has the money. When I go with a Senpai, I always ask
"How much is it?" but most of the the time, it ends
with them treating me. It's different when going with
a large group of people, but usually I don't make the
girl pay. My mom taught me that when I was in Middle
School. "If you go out to eat with a girl, you're
going to treat her okay?" "Yes, I understand!" Ever
since, I've been following that rule. When it's busy,
there are a lot of times when I eat between intervals
with work, but even when there isn't much time, I
don't particularly like eating in a hurry while moving
from locations. It's okay if it's to take a bite of
sandwich. But if possible, I'd rather sit down at a
table and eat after finshing work. I don't want to eat
in a rush when it's tight on time. I'll wait even if
I'm a little hungry. Because if you eat in a rush,
it's not as delicious.
To me, one thing I must have is friends. It makes a
difference to talk with a friend on the phone when
you're feeling down, right? When I'm feeling down, I
send a mail saying "I'm heartbroken right now, can you
encourage me?" , and usually a perverted remark comes
back (laugh) It depends on how down I'm feeling, but
if I can laugh at that, I become better. This is also
friendship between men. When I was in Kyoto by myself
for the recording of the drama [Byakkotai], talking on
the phone with my friends got rid of the loneliness,
and it made me think that friends are amazing. The
distance made me more thankful of there existence. In
exchange, my friends hardly ever come to me with there
problems. In my case, rather than giving a concrete
answer to a discussion, I only encourage them by
saying "It's Okay!" But even with that, there are
times when friends call to say "I'm feeling down and I
want to talk." When that happens, even if I'm tired
and busy with work, I'll take time out for them. If
I'm feeling down as well, I'll probably say,
"Actually, I'm feeling down too. What should us sad
companions do?" If a really really troublesome scene
is coming up the next day, then....... I'm really
sorry but I might not be able to do a long telephone
call. But, if it's impossible I'll explain the reason
to you. "Tomorrow, I have a really important scene.
When I finish filming that scene, I'll call you
immediately!" I don't have friends that would
misunderstand that, so our friendship would not end
over something like that. I always feel that I want to
support my friends as much as my friends support me
all the time.
It's a little over a year until I graduate University.
I definitley want to graduate. Honestly, there were so
many moments until now when I thought "Can I give up
now?" But the reason why I'm still continuing is
because I don't want to lose to myself. If I start, I
want to reach the goal. If it's possible, I don't want
to resign. If I run away unfinished, I can't be
satisfied with myself. It's going rather well,
together with my work, isn't it? It was more difficult
when I was in High School than now. Those days, I
somehow got through it with friends helping me with my
work. When I'm studying with my friends, sometimes
they would start playing games or go out to play
during the study, but I kept on studying, thinking
"I'm going to definitley remember this by tomorrow! I
can't stand not being able to remember it!!" I want to
remember the extent of the test. Otherwise, I don't
feel good. I can do the game after I finish studying.
There are some that goes "Oh no! I didn't do it" or
there are other that say"I just need to get this many
points." But if I'm going to do it, I want to do it
expecting a 100 points. I've never thought "It can't
be helped from here on."
I pitch will all my power for both study and work,
because I don't want to have regrets. Probably, I've
had an experience in the past where I thought "I
should have done this a little more." If I can exert
all my power at that moment, even if the outcome isn't
good, I feel that I can be satisfied with it. It takes
energy to be constantly pitching with all the power.
To say the truth, there may be days that I can only
put out 80%. When I feel "Today, I haven't been able
to put out all my power," I get irritated at myself. I
think it's the same with any job,but it's also an
option to show others that you're working hard. There
may be people who is only putting out 50% of there
power, but they think that it's okay as long as
everyone else thinks you're putting out 100%. But I
don't like that. Because I hate losing to myself, and
I don't want to lie to myself. Humans all die
eventually. Then, you'd want to do everything you can.
When I die, I want to look back on my life and think
"Good job, me! I want to be born again to myself."
The year 2007 will be better than last year. Every
year, I want to make it a better year than the one
before, and I constantly want to feel that "this year
to be the best year." Shooting [Byakkotai] recently, I
acted in the pouring rain, and battling against the
cold was the most difficult thing ever. But if it was
that difficult, it would stay in as a great memory ne.
Trials exist to be won over! is what they say. That's
how I'm going to become bigger one by one, so please
support me this year too!!
Straight Up
I want to rise straight up to where ever like this
bamboo!! This shot was taken while I was thinking
about that. [Byakkotai] will soon be broadcast. Please
watch!!
